br0kEn PiEceS

2007-05-27T00:45:00.000+08:00

it feels like 10 years since i last blogged!
well, school has been hectic.
or rather its my course.
feels worse than jc!
cos our lecturers are really true to their title!
they only lecture.
like when you have a project to do you're not
even informed of it..
you have to go check online.
and when you're unsure of how to go about
doing the project and approach them,
they only give you halfhearted, incomplete answers.
totally hair-tearing, teeth gritting times!

but overall i'm loving poly life.
i never really dread school.
and i may sound like a geek,
but even though its been one month plus,
i still look forward to school enthusiastically!

there's only one sickening thing:
my tutor for a certain subject.
shan't name names.
he's a part time lecturer, 20+?
my class has tutorial with him once a week.
HE JUST FREAKING LIKES TO PICK ON ME DURING CLASS!!!
even my classmates can tell.
he's the most sarcastic person EVER.
and all the time he just "suans" people,
namely, ME.
thank god next week will his last week.
he'll be flying of to some country for a conference.

hopefully antartica.
or some godforsaken place.
he won't be coming back =)
and the weird thing is that he has a split personality.
he's totally mean to me in class,
but when he messages me he's very nice.
i think he has an angel and a devil sitting
on different sides of his shoulder.

i have many things lined up!
emerge 07,my class chalet, cell group chalet.
and my mid sem tests are coming up in 2 weeks time.
luckily i only have 2 papers.
and the weightage for tests is nothing compared to projects.
=D
don't hate me.

so far the only subject that i'm having probs with
is essential graphics software.
adobe illustrator, photoshop.
basically, stuff that i can't do to save my life.
and i'm scared, cos its a CORE subject which i can't fail.
darn it!
why does my course have this?

i really really love my current friends.
they make me laugh so much i think my life will
be extended by many years.
not forgetting my sec school friends though.
but it seems, our schedules are simply crazy!
and never coincide.

my friend lent me SAW 1,2,3.
omgomg.
i watched part 1 last night and it
was soo good and twisted.
the ending is totally unexpected.
everyone should go watch it!
but i think its M18.
more for language, i think.
its not THAT gruesome.
i think nip/tuck is seriously worse.

its late,goodnight!
clara

2007-05-06T14:27:00.000+08:00

Hola!

haven't blogged proper in a long time.
today i finally get a breather, hence this post.
yesterday i had to wake up at 6+,
something which i haven't done for ages.
the reason was archery cca.
my friends and i went for the trail,
and we made it through!!
so, i went to school yesterday expecting to
be starting training proper.
instead, we were treated to PT,
physical training, which basically translates to
physical torture.
4 big rounds around the field, followed by another 4,
pushups, jumping jacks, and many others.
honestly, what does all this have to do with archery?
it was said that this training thing would
go on for the first few weeks.
there after, training would begin.
today i'm seriously aching all over -_-
shoulders, arms, legs, stomach, EVERYTHING!!

project work is streaming in!
no one seems to be having a sense of urgency yet.

people, exciting news!
tomorrow i and some other communication and media
management people will be going to caldecott hill,
mediacorp for filiming!! its some episode of TAB TV,
and the episode will be called "Celebrity Fanatics."
we're still unsure whether we'll be filmed, or watching
the filming.
the celeb going...is really unconfirmed.
but its 90% Zoe Tay!!
cos some people were told to make banners with..
what else? the name zoe tay on them.
we have to rush down after our last tutorial,
APEL, some thing like civic morals ed,
with darryl david =)

i don't do sympathy, sorry.
you know, there's one thing i can't stand.
and that is, people who make themselves sound
super pitiful just to make people pity them
and comfort them.
there's nothing truly bad happening in their life,
seriously.
one example:
i was just have a group discussion online.
i was gushing over some hot actors with my friends.
( -__- i know, i know)
when one of the guys in the discussion said:
" =(.i feel so unwanted now... "
that really pissed me off.
because it wasn't the first time that he tried to pull
off something like that.
it was like the 4th time or so.
and to him i replied:
fyi, i don't do sympathy, sorry.

sounds mean, but its the truth.
the aim of him saying that is most prob
to get the girls to go:
no la, you're fine..don't say that about yourself...
uuugh.
why should i (or we) do that?
i can't stand people who feel sorry for themselves.
everyone, i repeat, EVERYONE, has flaws.
except God, d-oh.
but whether you get over it or dwell on it
is another issue altogether.
if you get over it, good for you.
or if you plan to do something to change it,
even better.
but if you dwell in it,
how can you then ever discover your other talents??
and are you then gonna feed on people's sympathy?
or use your flaw as an excuse for all your mistakes?
thats plain ridiculous!

build a bridge and GET OVER IT!!
( i may sound mad but i'm not )

think about this.

=),
Clara.

2007-05-04T19:46:00.000+08:00

whoops, haven't blogged for a while.
this week spells the beginning of tutorials.
i greatly prefer tutorials to lectures.
there's so much more interaction going on,
and you actually get to DO things.

the best way to sit through a lecture is,
of course, to bring your laptop along.
my laptop arrived yesterday.
lovely white mac =)
and i'm typing this entry out on it right now.
totally diff. from windows, but still, user-friendly all
the same.

sigh.
my sis wants the modem back, grumbling away.
gtg.

2007-04-26T22:20:00.000+08:00

today actually..i had no lectures.
and since tutorials are off this week,
so i wasn't even supposed to go to school
today.but safra radio invited 2 djs,
1 from power 98, another from 88.3
to give cmm pupils a talk about radio.
so i decided to go, since radio is
the real reason why i joined cmm.
i'm glad i went for the talk.
it was super short actually..
lots of time was given to Q and As..

wanna know the pay of a DJ?
1.4 to 1.6k a month is the basic pay.
low right?
but for every commercial you record
you get $150.
and if you're good, you can get 3 or more
a day.
easy peasy, just a matter of reading a script.
and when you do roadshows,
you get paid $500 to $1200 (if you're really wanted)
PER HOUR.
woah!!
anyway, the very minimum a dj gets
(aka a lazy dj)
is 4k++.
and if you work hard..who knows how high
it might go?
definitely my passion.
and not just cos of the pay.

after the talk i went bowling with some
cmm peeps. they're all really nice!
down to earth...
you know how people are always saying
how snobbish we are?
and how badly we treat others?
it actually seems the OTHER way around.
when we(cmm people) walked past
some design people at the bowling place,
where they were horsing around.
they immediately stopped what they were
doing.one of them said:
hey, lets stop it. the cmm people are here.
they might think we're crazy.
having said that, they proceeded to cold-stare us.
how nice right?

hah..i saw my friend this morning.
h.h..
she's so cute man..
she had this thick cooking book in her hands.
study hard but play hard too =))

my friend asked for my blog address.
but i didn't give it.
haha.
its like my safe haven where i can say what i want.
i took the link off my friendster.
so...this blog is somewhat annoymous now.
so shhh..readers.. ;)

Only yours,
Clara

2007-04-23T19:30:00.000+08:00

aiyo...
go to my friendster to view the nice photos.
somehow i can't upload any..
we're all wearing yellow in all the new pics,
so look out for that =)

Lessons started today,
no tutorials this week though.
Our class was supposed to have
a session with Mr Daryl David,
but it was a tutorial.

i'm soooo thankful for my new friends.
they're all reeeally great people.
Thank God!

not gonna delete my friendster temporarily,
cos people from my school are adding me
-__-

Clara.

2007-04-21T23:09:00.000+08:00

YAY!
i'm on a high!
lasy night was orientation's
jam n' hop.
which is basically some crappo band jammin
for a while before hoppin'!
dancing that is.
i danced so hard that my feet still hurt.
wish the music could be better though,
wish the people would groovee more!

i can't wait for monday.seriously.
and i'm gonna get a laptop, mac most prob.
i looove my class.
there's this guy who has like a 2k + camera.
so my friends and i made him take lotsa photos
of...what else?
us -_-
but the photo are seriously GREAT.
i mean it.
the cam just knows how to take very model-ly shots.
so hopely he'll get online and i'll get him
to send them pics over.

wellwellwell..
i'm tired.
woke up with a horrible headache.
the after effect of too much dancing?
and my flu finally got the better of me.
thus i had to skip make-up cell group.
i served at the bookstore today!
the guy is charge of my group is sooo
cute in a lil' brother way even though he's
older, and he's super nice.
i'm really glad with my choice of ministry =)

right..till next time..
clara.

2007-04-19T22:09:00.000+08:00

Orientation was todaaay!
And boy was it fun.
I've realised that the mind dominates
your day.If you tell yourself it'll be boring,
trust me, it will.

I was super sick in the morning,
what with a flu, sore throat, cough,
and OH cramps.

but i told myself to pick up my energy level.
it isn't good to be emo on the first day of school.
made many new friends.
what a coincidence! my tuition friend
is in the same class as me!
and she didn't even mentioned coming
to my poly in the 1st place.
same church as me, woohoo.

i really love my class,
all 20 or so people.
they're great fun, no airs about them at all.
i just can't stand 1 person.
without that person, this class would
be PERFECT.
but things never are, right?
and i know God put that person in
my class for a purpose.
so..always look on the brighter side of life!
don't ask me who tt person is =x.

gawd i'm so perky today.scary.

THERE'S A HOTTIE IN MY CLASS.
the only hottie, and he's in my class.
yay!
mixed blood ;)))
and super duper nice.
got sabo-ed a lot of times today.
the worst thing was being forced to do a
verrry hot dance with him and another girl.
=xxx.
totally didn't want to,
no matter how hot he was.
no choice though.
but he was so nice to me and that girl.
asking if it was ok,etc.
thats what i like.
i can't stand guys who just hop on your bandwagon.
totally rude.
at the end of it all, when
my course had a gathering,
i was so paiseh!! when i got complimented
in front of everyone else
for joining in even though
i wasn't exactly feeling my best.
the support leader was cautious how he
phrased it though..
he stressed tt it wasn't cos i was pretty.
-_-

met many of my sec sch pals.
we mustmustMUST get together for lunch
at campus when our schedules are more settled down.

poly life is incredible.
truly.
try 22 hrs of school a week.
tts like 4 hrs+ a day,
PLUS that includes 1 hr of break.
whoa!!

my dear phone is giving me LOTSA probs.
so...if you call me and i can't seem to hear you,
message me alright?
lazy to send it for servicing.

i find friendster SUCH an unnessessary
thing now.maybe even a pest.
the probs it causes me...
i might delete my account soon.

bye,
clara.

don't you know..what can be said and what can't?
don't tell other people stuff they're not meant to hear.
i think someone got hurt in the process.
brain before mouth!

2007-04-17T16:37:00.000+08:00

ahh..
blogging in absolute comfort.
my brother's room, air-conditioned.

the heat these past few days have been simply
unbearable.the sun certainly isn't holding
anything back.
i bore its full wrath on fri and sunday
when i was at the indoor stadium
queuing up for the Benny Hinn healing crusade.
gosh.the worst was on sunday.
my cell group had to wait for almost an hour under
the scorching sun.
thankfully i didn't get dark =x

school's starting soon.
in fact orientation is on thurs and fri.
i don't feel like going.
if it wasn't compulsory i wouldn't..
cos its at 8 30 in the morning!Howhow?
I can only wake up earliest after 12 these
few days.
sigh..bad slping habits..

finally, this saturday i can start serving in
the bookstore ministry!
but the reporting time is abnormally early
this week.
10 am.
i think it'll end at 9+pm?
with service in between.
cos the stuff at the indoor stadium will be shifted
back, which means lotsa packing to do.

once again today i am reminded of this statement:
Its a free world.

no matter how controlled we think we are,
we def. have freedom when it comes
to our finances and our choices.
take for instance:smoking.
people know its bad, but they still do it.
we may try to stop them with campaigns,
and most recently, freaky ads but
ultimately, in the end it is still their choice.
we can't exactly stop them can we?
i mean, they are using their own $$ to buy
cigarettes, and the choice is theirs.
can we stop them?
nope.
as long as the cigarette trade is still
legal, and ongoing, we can't stop
people from smoking.
cos its a free world.

all we can do is prevention and punishment.
take for instance stealing/shoplifting.
we try to prevent it, by installing CCTV,
hiring more security guards to patrol malls,etc.
we discourage people from doing it by punishing
offenders, in the hope of stopping others from doing it.
we send them to jail, cane them,fine them,etc.
but in the end. we can't exactly stop stealing, can we?
we can only discourage it.

if you think about things this way,
you'll realise that many things in
this world is out of our control.
because we can't control the human mind.
we can't dictate people's choices for them.
we can't stop crime.
and i think that no matter how efficient
a law system is,
it is still useless against the human mind.
it can't stop people from committing crimes,
because if in the end people
1)Decide not to care about the consequences,
2)Think that they can get away from it,
crime is never gonna stop,
unless every criminal can be nabbed during the crime
and put behind bars.

the importance of the human mind must never
be understated.what if one day someone
just feels like bombing several places?
just because of one person's unstability, the world
will be put in danger.
that makes me realise how much we are depending
on the police to nab criminals/terrorists in the act.
but the police is merely a force.
a human force.
and its numbers are limited too.
people/things are never fully reliable.
if they fail, we'll have to pay the price,
because we relied on them.
and trusted them.
but yet so many times,
we depend on them.
or at least that is what we tell ourselves
as an excuse for laziness.
how many of us are actually vigilant
while taking public transport?
how many of us observe a suspicious person
throughout the whole ride?
we probably just spare them a glance
or two before plugging back our mp3s.

food for thought.

wow.
i actually started out this entry
not knowing what to write.
but one thing lead to another,
and i have reached the end of my post.

much <3,
Clara.

2007-04-11T23:57:00.000+08:00

Remember in SS when we learnt that
one of the principles of good governance
is Transparency?
Aye, that stuff is true.
Was reading the newspaper when the various pays
of all the ministers after some changes
were made were revealed.
My my....one hundred thousand a month!
$$100,000+++!!
So, say...if you spend $2ooo,
you'll have $98,000 loose change still!
wow!
Not easy money though.
Being a minister in our sunny
lil island really isn't simple
Its super stressful...
But the good quality of governance
makes our country what it is today.
So yea, I think they deserve every cent
er wait i mean thousand of it.

OMG

My house is experiencing a sort of
onslaught of bees.yikes.

they all have a fixed flight route,
unless someone intercedes them
in their path.
they fly into the living room via
the huge windows,
zoom past the dining room and
into the kitchen where they fly out via the yard.

whats up with them?!
their powers of navigation are
too superb to be real.
they know the layout of my place at the first visit.
they apparently enter with a goal
in mind: to get from the pool
area to the reservoir area.
annoying like hell,
one zooming in every once in
a while, giving everyone and rainbow
a rude shock.

why choose my house, out
of the other 32 units in the block?
their windows are open too.
3 possible reasons, i think.
1) Bees fly at an average of
5 storeys high ^_?
2) One bee told another bee about
this shortcut and thus the whole gang
is using it.
3) My mum killed a bee that day,
cos it was trying to get into the shoe cabinet,
whereby it would settle into one of
the shoes and the unfortunate wearer
might experience a little stinging
and discomfort.
So the whole gang is back for revenge.
Not to sting us, but to annoy us to death.

What do you think?

Clara.

and when you go,
would you have the guts to say:
i don't love you
like i loved you
yesterday.

2007-04-08T21:46:00.000+08:00

aww.
just watched for the 2nd time,
A.I Artificial Intelligence and cried
buckets.its my most fav movies
of all times.disturbing, complex and
intellectually challenging.
but yet deeply moving.

was checking through my email
today.
trashy mail aside, other emails
often tell of stories to virtually
nudge you in the side and
remind you of things like:
Treasure your loved ones.
yadda yadda.
i absolutely LOVE reading such mail.
There is also those cutsey ones talking
about what girls love about guys
and vice versa.
All such mail is welcome.
that is, unless, at the very bottom
of the page reads:
"This is a chain letter.
This is true-If you ignore
it bad things will befall you.
Send this email to
*0-5* people, your crush will hate you.
*6-10*people,your crush will notice you.
*11-15*people,your crush will call you tonight.
*16 and above*people,your crush will
grab you and kiss you."
-__-""

TO HELL with chain letters!
What spoilers!
I can only conclude this about chain-letter
starters.
They may start off with good intentions,
either to get you to appreciate people
better or to create that warm fuzzy feeling
inside about L.O.V.E.
But then they get greedy.and kiasu.
They desire their email to be sent ALL over the
net,for as many people as
possible to read the letter.
Thus, they attach a threat to the end of the letter.
Problem solved.
But what a way to spoil something nice.

Its like baking a cake and then smashing
it for fear that your lil' brother will eat it.
Make much sense?
Noooo.

Clara.

2007-04-06T18:49:00.000+08:00

SHIOK.
I have done it.
No, not find a bf.
Its even better.

....

I've pre-ordered HARRY POTTER
AND THE DEATHLY HALLOWS!!
super ex leh the book.
$50+.
grumble grumble.
July 13th is the release date,
I think...
All I'll have to do is go down and collect it.
No jostling, my book will be reserved.
HP fans should go do that too..
lest it runs out of stock =x

what horror!

clara.

2007-04-05T22:31:00.000+08:00

what's everyone up to?
as i'm writing this i'm getting
a sense of deja vu.
could it be that my posts are all
starting to sound the same?

i had lunch with my mum and my boss
at raffles city.
or rather, my mum's friend,
since i'm no longer working.
took my final pay check and the feeling
was awesome.
around $650 for two weeks,
only weekdays.
plus i only worked a shift on one of those days..

went to LV with them after a great lunch.
my mum has more or less chosen the bag she wants..
and i have chosen the purse i want.
;)
=(
but i can't have it.
can afford it, cos of all my pay,
but its really not worth it.
$600 for a wallet.-__-

haven't had much of an intellectual post for some time.
being away from school does that to you.

but anyway,
as inexperienced as i am in the arena of love,
i do acknowledge something--
that it is so very important not to
take love as a habit.
the moment your love for a person
becomes habitual, that's when your relationship
will slowly hit ground zero.

perhaps another way to phrase habitual love is:
taking for granted.
how dangerous that is!
when we take a person for granted,
we fail to appreciate whatever they are doing for us,
till a tragedy of some sort strikes.
that applies to our loved ones too.
i'm sure realising that your mum meant well
at her deathbed is an all too familiar scene
in serial dramas.

if love had a progress chart,
it would most probably take the shape
of a mountain for most.
at first, the love has to be cultivated.
then it'll reach its peak.
but before it goes downhill,
thats when you have to make a conscious
effort to make sure it doesn't.
i think the keyword here is: surprise.
as sweet as getting together for dinner
every once in a while and catching a movie
might be,
after some time it becomes a routine.
and that calls for change.

do you realise why unwed couples
are always so lovey dovey as compared
to long-term married one?
no no no, its not about getting over the thrill of love.
that should never happen.
its because of one word: insecurity.
a married man would take his wife for granted
much more easily.
why? cos technically, she's his.
its written in black and white,
and the vows have been said.
its secure.
whereas the courtship is still on for
unwed couples, even if you're 100%
sure that she'll be yours.
cos technically,
she's still free to leave you at her whim
and fancy.
she isn't bound to you by marriage.
that means you have to keep the game going.

someone once told me that couples
not planning to have children should stay
unwed as marriage always seems to
release a floodgate of problems.
yes,it is sweet to "get over
those hurdles together".
but why even make yourself stumble
in the first place?

but many people still prefer to marry.
for its symbolic reasons aside,
when you really love someone,
you get "kiasu".
;)
isn't kiasu-ism the reason for marriage?
i mean, apart from giving your children,
if any,a "stable" enviroment and "security",
marriage is a vow that:
you are his, only his,
and he is yours,only yours.
get it?
one way to put it is:
a vow to bind each other together through it all.
doesn't that sound beautiful?
another way is:
a kiasu move to ensure that you'll have all of him/her
forever and ever more.

=)
food for thought.
(eh, not trying to discourage marriage here!!
don't get me wrong!i'm not against it myself.
its just something to mull over,
like the ugly side of something beautiful)

xoxo,
clara.

2007-04-02T23:32:00.000+08:00

today was officially my last day of work!
take note, don't drop by my workplace >.<

it was so sudden,
i was supposed to work on thurs,
and next thursday and friday.
but i'm glad that my boss was able to find
a new full-time staff..
todays lots of new stock came in.
all from korea where my boss had just returned from.
soooo pretty..
there was this pair of earrings that i was lusting
after.but it cost 98 -_-.

its only after things pass you by
that you start to appreciate them.
i used to complain about my job,
but now i realise how blessed i am
to have this job.
the pay is good, and i get paid to slack.
i'll def. go back during the hols.

school's starting soon..
i'll have to go shopping for clothes =(
i don't particularly like shopping.
warehouse's new collection is really enticing though
=p

i can't stand it when parents malign others
to make their kids behave.
e.g:
kid is running around, screaming.
parents get frustrated,and point
at an innocent person nearby
and say:"you see?korkor/zehzeh
is angry at you.keep quiet!"
and the poor person tries to smile
at the kid.
instead, the kid opens his eyes
really wide and shuffles backwards
till he bumps into his parent's legs
and grab their hands tightly,
all the time looking totally fearful
of the supposedly angry person.

on sat night i had dinner with my parents
at a restaurant and WHOA!!
the waiter was soooo cute.
=p
going to study at NAFA.
my mum asked him oO

i'm always grateful that i'm really
close to my mum.
i can tell her who i'm crushing on,
and she's always so funny.
she never once says:
concentrate on your studies!
love comes later!
maybe cos she knows that i'm so picky,
i'll prob die single =(

i've run out of things to say.
except that gerard way's voice in my ears
sounds so good.

clara.

2007-03-30T22:53:00.000+08:00

FREAKY PEOPLE.

yay i found time to post >.<
off till thursday.
lunch with my much-missed friends
this sunday!

short post today,
cos i just wanted to get this out
of my system.
today i finished work early,
reached the station near my house
at 10 30pm.
my parents are in cell group till now,
so i decided to cab home.
as i was at the taxi stand,
blasting evanescence on my player,
i got approached by this guy.
he looked....stupid.
you know how some people
just look dumb?
yup.
he said:Hi, I'm ryan(or bryan.i couldn't care less)
I'm doing a free portfolio,
and we're looking for faces.
I would really like you to be in it.
he stuck out his hand.

i didn't want to shake his hand.
i don't particularly like touching
strangers.who knows if they're clean
or have TB or something right?

i said:sorry.i'm not interested.
he suddenly looked desperate.
(what, did he think i was gonna
fall on my knees and beg him to accept me?)
he said urgently:but its free.

SO WHAT IF ITS FREE?
i was thinking.
so if you give me a pile of cow dung,
i'm supposed to take it cos its FREE??!!
besides,you don't look trustable AT ALL.

i said again:i'm REALLY not interested.
sorry.
at this point his hand was still stuck out for me to shake.
he then said:Please.Just shake my hand.
i think at about this time i adopted
a WTF?!!! look on my face.
i said:NO.
and plugged back my mp3.
he still kept asking me to
"just shake his hand."
i must have said "NO" 3 more times.
a cab came and i gleefully darted into it and sped off.

WHERE TO FIND THIS TYPE OF
PEOPLE YOU TELL ME.
they must be from mars.
he is super desperate or something.
its as though i'm the last remaining remnant
of buddha and one touch, *poof*
enlightenment.
do i look like buddha's toenail?

on a more serious note,
NEVER ever trust such people.
why?

1)no namecard.
which means..
2)no company.
WHICH means..
3)cheater.
which means...
4)danger.

puh-lease.
even if (0.001%)
he does belong to some agency,
WHY is he talent-scouting at night?!
doesn't make much sense.
humans aren't nocturnal.
and
WHY is he the only one?
no other colleague.

GIRLS.
Don't ever believe such people.
guys too, on second thought.
this world is tainted with trashy people.

Clara.

2007-03-25T19:16:00.000+08:00

finally.
i can blog again...
last week i worked all weekdays,
10-10...
which makes me about $300 richer ;)
totally worn out..
had to drag myself out of bed
on sat early morn for the medical checkup
at town.
my house is just 15mins from town.
after the checkup,
had a quick bite and rushed off to cell group.
by then my energy level was 50%...
after cell group rushed down to service..
after service my energy level went back to 100%.
church always does that for me..

so basically today was my only off-day
from all the activities.
woke up at 1pm. -_-
(can you blame me?6 hrs of sleep throughout the week,
when i'm used to 9hrs.)
had brunch, and played with rainbow all the
way till 4.
i've missed her sooo much.
wonder if she felt neglected..
i could only say hi to her every morn before
i left for work.
went to pluck my eyebrows (owowOW)
and went on a junk food shopping spree
with my mum.
i intend to pass time at work by
stuffing myself silly.

the next time i blog will be sat/sun..
just so you ppl know...
and come here for nothing except
for free music >.<
do tag though!!

after this week's work i can only conclude:
People are weird.
its true that only when you work
you'll meet all kinds of funny ppl.
lemme list them down.

1)Vain people.
Everyone is vain to a certain extent.
But i reeally can't stand it when people
pretend to be interested in my stall's stuff
while examining their reflection in the
antique mirror.
There was this guy who actually stopped,
took out his comb, and combed his hair.
I can't help but glare at such people.
The thick-skinned ones don't even care.

2)People who are more interested in ME.
Guys aside,
there was this one lady who kept looking at me
while i was trying to explain my products
to her..
and when i was done she asked me:
You're mixed blood right?
I said: No.
She then said:No lah, you're mixed.
OHMYGAWD.
i was dumbfounded.
who should know better what heritage i am?
MYSELF, not her, a COMPLETE stranger!!
she remarked:you're very pretty.mixed.
and walked off.

3)Children who think my stall is a playground.
There was this kid who was running round and round my stall,
playing hide-and-seek with his dad.
and his dad was rather stupid.
he kept chasing behind his kid.
and never could catch him.
finally, after the 74674th time,
i felt super dizzy and told the man that he should run the
other way.he did, and caught his kid.
-___________-

many more...
but here's something EXCITING.

it was..er..wednesday afternoon i think.
the crowd was missing,
and the whole shopping centre was kind
of sad and empty.
this guy came to my stall.
he looked like a chinese contractor..
company shirt,rugged pants..
he kept touching my stuff.
at first i just let him browse.
but after a long time he was still there,
so i approached him, and asked him
whether he was looking for a gift.
he mumbled something totally incomprehensible.
so i just let him look around more.
it was then that i noticed something weird.
he kept almost-falling-asleep.
i thought he was gonna faint at times
or fall on his back.
then a sudden thought came to mind-
could he be drunk?
and i remembered that episode on the mrt.
but i didn't catch a whiff of any alcohol.
the guy realised that i was staring at his actions.
he muttered something about packing stuff.
so i thought that he must be tired from work.
then suddenly he took up one of the necklaces
and BIT it.
and then he tugged on it very hard.
i totally freaked out,
but kept telling myself over and over again that he
was prob. testing the necklace.
but somehow that logic didn't satisfy me.
at that point in time i was just grateful that the necklace
he chose had a metal-wire threading so it didn't break.
then he put down the necklace,
picked up another, and tried
to EAT a black bead on it.
MY GOODNESS.
i had to use all my might not to die from fright.
i tried to attract the attention of the two women tending
the stall next to mine,but to no avail.
then suddenly someone tapped on my shoulder.
i spun around to see the lady who tended
my boss's other stall at the end.
she told me that she had been observing him,
and had phoned security.
i was so relieved..
the guy was still biting the necklace.
i half-wished that he would swallow it and die.
which is totally mean, but put yourself in my shoes.
but then i thought that a dead body at my stall
wouldn't be great,
so i wished that security would hurry.
the lady whispered to me: He's on drugs.
Suddenly it all fell into place.
he's not mad..
cos mad people don't doze off while standing up.
he's not drunk..not a whiff of alcohol.
which leaves us with drugs.
thats the only thing left which will alter a person's
actions and behaviour.
a million thoughts were running through
my head.
my brain was in overdrive mode.
then...the guard came..and led him away.
he was so groggy, he didn't even resist.
the guard came back later to check how i was.
i was fine by then,but totally GROSSED out
bu the fact that i had to wipe the 2 necklaces
he bit for obvious reasons.
i was also a little cranky.
the security at my working place
NEVER patrol the shopping centre.
that's why weird people hang out there,
even though its town,not some neighbourhood.
(fyi there are gays looking for partners openly too)
so i told the guard that had there been
regularly patrolling, such things would not happen.
he was apologetic,and promised that
he would send people to patrol more often.
true to his word..guards patroled much more often
in the following days.

the end.
out of all the weird people i have met,
i can now add 'drug addict' to my list.

funny that it always takes something
serious to make people get up and move.
it takes a bomb attack to increase security,
it takes HORRIBLE grades to make a person
study,
it takes a death to treasure your loved ones.
and so on...
not forgetting.
it takes a drug addict to make lazy guards patrol more.
-_-"

no one came to visit me at work this week =(
my friend went today but i was off.
sooooo sorry!!
but i did meet one of my church friends
when i went down to buy food from
mos burger.
she was with some school mates
and a guy who was rather cute.
you know my standards..so that means
he's not bad at all.
i walked over to say hi.
i was so relieved to find a familiar face.
funnily, the guy looked somewhat surprised
when i walked past him and chatted with my friend.
i soon found out why..
my friend later told me that he
was project superstar's nat.
chey.
bet he thought i was gonna ask him for an autograph.
haha.i never get caught up with such things.

my poly stuff are almost settled..
i have a question: is pink hair allowed in poly?
cos I STILL WANT IT.
http://www.chinadaily.com.cn/entertainment/2007-03/06/xin_110304060938860244667.jpg
lookie.
even miss avril has it.
she hasn't been very nice after marriage,
once even spitting at fans.
but anyway, i love her hair.
my hair is getting straight.
i think my curls are wearing out.
but they look so nice and natural now.
back to the subject.
i used to think avril was sooo pretty.
until i saw this.
without makeup.
http://www.zonalibre.org/blog/nivonog/archives/avril_lavigne_no_makeup_04.jpg
shudder.

but in case anti-makeup people
started getting all smug..
read this.
its the most ingenious post ever.
http://xiaxue.blogspot.com/2003/08/quite-often-i-get-comments-like-this.html

hope this has been a long-enough post.
and OH,
pink is the colour of 2007.
not my fav colour,
but it would look good on hair.
but i only like this shade of pink.
http://www.w98.us/ekd/images/pink%20hair%20closeup.jpg
i'll let my aunt do it..
lest i emerge from some salon looking awful.

2007-03-16T23:11:00.000+08:00

arrgh.
long time no post..
no pics today (or for that matter
for a while more)
cos of my batteries.
cos of my cam's high megapixels,
it uses up batteries super fast.
and at first i used energizer's
high-power-device batts.
but they cost $3 per pair.
(i need 2)
and after every use ( 1 1/2 hr )
they die.
so i was thinking:
if i use my cam 150 times..
that'll set me back by $450.
i could bleach my teeth with that money -_-
so..my dad came up with an idea--
rechargable batts.
so i used them..
the charger costs like $50!
but in the long run it'll def.
be cheaper than disposable batts.
but NOW my charger is spoilt.
i think.
the batts won't charge.
so until i figure something out..no pics sry!

neways..
hectic times lie ahead for me!!
my boss is going overseas twice
in the following weeks so i have to
work very regularly.
the last time i worked was thursday.
many thanks to jie pin for calling
when i was soo bored.
and to my cousin for visiting me!
these made my day pass by a lil'
faster..

i want a 4i subset outing.lol.
LETSGOWATCHAMOVIE
cosihaven'twatchedonein10months.
so embarrassing!
was on my way to cell group when
i saw the poster for "Mr Bean's Holiday".
--Disaster has a passport--
how apt.

some things i can't stand at work.
utter rubbish i tell you.
and mostly from the locals.
(surprise, surprise.not.)
these people get angry at ME
for my bosses's rules.

1)They pester me for a discount,
and i tell them,very nicely, that
our shop doesn't give discounts.
They start grumbling and immediately walk off.

2)They complain about the pricing.
They demand to know why its so ex.
(as if its my fault)
Once this indian woman started scolding me
for the prices and said that you could
get the same stuff for much cheaper
at LUCKY PLAZA.
hello.
this is town, for pete's sake.
i had to use every ounce of
my self control not to smack her
with a solid piece of amethyst.
i then said airily:
well.what you pay for is what you get.
(yi fen qian yi fen huo)
please DO NOT argue with me.
she shuffled off huffily.

3)They ask for directions.
and when you are unsure,
they GLARE at you as though
you were deliberately keeping it from them.
HE-LLO.
do you think that i built the shopping centre?
and bear in mind that YOU are asking OTHERS
for help, not vice versa.

4)They totally destroy your display,
try on everything,
and then tell you that the stuff is nice
but they won't spend such money on it.

5)They are simply looking for someone
to argue with.
they seem to challenge your patience.
i never give them the satisfaction they want
by losing it.

all in all, my attitude towards such people
is indifference.
we could do without such customers.
surely they have seen the ad saying:
Good service begins with yourself.
if your behaviour is as such,
how do you still expect people to serve
you whole-heartedly?

xoxo,
clara.

2007-03-09T22:21:00.000+08:00

falling sick is a sure fire way
of losing weight.
i lost 1kg. =(
which makes me..39.
i aim to be 42 by the end of this year.
cos that sounds more..healthy.

anyways,
here's one of my absolutely fav. girls.
audrey kitching.
you must be going: who??
well.
in short, panic! at the disco's
lead singer's ex-girlfriend.
waaay pretty.
its one thing to be pretty-
anyone can be pretty.
its all about finding out what works
for you.
but its another thing to be pretty
in an edgy way.
and audrey does just that.
and oh--
i want pink hair.
i'm gonna get pink hair.
imagine twirling a strand of pink
hair and rolling your eyes?
heh.kidding.
i just want a couple of streaks,
at the bottom.
and darkdark pink.
not baby pink.
here's what she looks like.
click on the pics.
for a bigger version.
she looks like a doll.

she's btw, an accomplished model.
www.myspace.com/twiggviolence
just so you know.

k nuff girl talk.

main reason for blogging today:
Little annoyances.
mine mostly are during the journey
to work, when i'm grumpy as hell.
and everything isn't funny at all.

we're bound to encounter
stuff that irritates us to no end.
but sometimes we just gotta live with it.
here's a hastily put together list.

1)I can't stand it when people take forever
to step off the escalator.
gosh.
imagine if you crash into the person?
and the next person would crash into you too.
that'll be a human domino.
and THAT is my 2nd fear,1st being shut in between
lift doors. =x
2)The upriding escalator at city hall has faulty handrails.
that slide downwards.
so you'll find your hands slipping down as
you go up.which isn't very funny
when you've only had 5 hrs of sleep.
3)Ringtones...rawr!!!
on the mrt.
never mind if they're awful,
they're also loud.
and just when everyone is looking around for the
culprit, he/she slowly takes out his phone
smugly.well, mission accomplished if he/she
just wanted to annoy the hell out of others.
and show them his/her bad taste.
4)Starers.
as though there aren't enough things
to look at, they look at YOU.
and you don't know why, you haven't done
anything wrong,you didn't pick your nose
and eat it. (haha gross to the max)
but still.THEY STARE.
you glare back and they don't get it.
they must be stupid, you conclude.
5)Smelly people.
You just feel like digging into your
savings to buy them deodorant.
end of story.

And last but DEF. not least,

6)Overly affectionate couples.
gosh.get.a.room.
it makes onlookers uncomfortable,firstly.
recently someone wrote in to
STOMP, complaining about PDAs
(Public Displays of Affection).
i seriously applaud that person.
and as idiots do exist in this world,
someone actually defended PDAs.
that someone must be a testerone-charged
teenager.
lets call him harry.
to set the record straight,
some PDAs are fine,harry.
a hug, a peck on the lips,
holding hands,THEY ARE FINE.
but not ENGAGING IN A MAKE-OUT SESSION
IN FULL VIEW OF MANY OTHER PEOPLE.
the thing is, the person who wrote in
was complaining about a couple who
was getting too carried away on a train.
and dear old harry offered this
worthless piece of advice:
look away lor.
my jaw dropped when i read that
in the newspaper.
hands shaking, i read it again.
it was true.
such stupidity does exist.
so...just because a couple cannot keep
their raging hormones under control,
the rest of the commuters actually have to
to compromise?
when they're innocent?
i think its completely unfair that
the passengers have to pull out a year-old
magazine and pretend to read;
look at the "interesting" patterns
on the floor;
be "fascinated" by the counter-terrorism video?
the thing is,
i feel very strongly that you can do whatever
you like in public,
cos it is a free world,
but only,only, as long as it doesn't affect others.
i'm an anti-extreme-PDA person.
surely there has to be a line between
acceptable PDAs and unacceptable ones.
imagine if people got jailed for unacceptable
PDAs.HAH.
then all the chee-kos will have
a jail record.yay!
we'll be saved from such unpleasant sights.
and i wouldn't have to be reminded
of my non-existant love life.
;)

at the end of the day,if a person values modesty,
he/she wouldn't cheapen themselves
in such a way.
what if their future employer witnessed that sight?
aha.
gone case.

lotsa <3,
clara.

2007-03-06T23:02:00.000+08:00

in case you didn't quite catch
my prev. tag...
posting was out today.
and thank God,
i got my 1st choice!
mass com at tp..
i was super happy.

i just hope it isn't true that
skinny people are b*tches
and girls who aren't ugly are sl*ts.
gosh.
sooo many rumours.

the night before i couldn't sleep.
and i had a nightmare that results
came out in weird codes like this:
5,2

and i didn't know what the heck that meant
cos i didn't pay attention during a briefing.
i got so panicky ><
and when i finally decoded it,
it meant that out of my 5
choices, i got the 2rd one.
which was np.
and just then my alarm rang.
first time that i woke up so early
when there wasn't any work.

my celebration turned solemn
when i fell ill AGAIN.
like just after my fever 2 days back
subsided.
this time i got stomach flu and gastric.
ow.OW.
i hate gastric.
it came about this time cos
i slept in late the prev day
(duh, i was sick),
missed breakfast and woke up starving.
and then this morning i was hungry but
went back to sleep after getting my
results cos i wasn't feeling well.

i threw up my jap restaurant lunch.
what a waste.lol.
but its true that you feel better after
throwing up.
and soon i got hungry again.
stole my brother's fries,
and had a well deserved rest.
one thing i hate about gastric is that
even after its gone your stomach
feels reaally sore.
like someone just beat the hell out of you.
and how to tell when the pain is gastric-induced:
when its not your belly hurting but
farther up.
cos we all know that the stomach is actually
higher up than your belly right?

right..gonna rest.
hope you all had good postings..
night.

clara.

2007-03-02T23:02:00.000+08:00

such a long hiatus but anyways
i'm back!!
busy working and making $$ lately.
tiring but satisfying.

today was such an interesting day,
hence my decision to blog even though
the time i spend blogging could be
the time used to catch up on my beauty sleep
;)

remember i told you all about the guy
approaching me for the starhub ad?
they asked me to get back to them.
but i was too lazy.
well, they called me back and
arranged for an interview.
i was reluctant to go,
then decided i'll go and drag my mum
along for safety reasons.
i thought i wouldn't be able to make it,
that the interview would last 3 mins
and end with empty promises to call me
back soon.
but.
it lasted for 1 and a half hours.
so.
they think that my selling point
is that i'm chinese but i don't look chinese.
they think i look.
jap.
my gosh.
nooooooooooo.
not everyone with curly hair
and slightly bigger eyes is jap.
def. not my ideal image.
the deal is:
if i sign up, they'll send me to auditions
straight away..
for print ads..
and maybe tv commercials.
and whether i make it or not will be
then up to myself.
i'm free to reject auditions.
BUT.
but.i have to sign on with them.
and get my own portfolio.
which is: $380.
no ++, just $380.
and $8-$15 for a com card..
which is like a licence to model.
what do you guys think?
i don't know what i should do!!
help!
yes/no?
btw just one assignment will be able
to cover the cost of the portfolio.
one 40 min photoshoot=$400+++.
0.0
my mum says its up to me.
interestingly, the agency was interested
in my MUM too.
cos the demand for middle aged women
is high, to, you know,
create that happy family image in ads.
no surprise there though.
my mum's features are great.
and her nose.
HER NOSE.
is perfect.
(which i, unfortunately, did not inherit =[ )

yup.

anyways on to work.
you know the old saying:
if you don't mention it it will not come to pass.
but if you do, it'll happen.
i was talking on the phone with my friend
when she asked me if guys have ever
like approached me for my no. , stuff like that.
i said: no, they usually just pretend to look
at my stall. which is totally dim-witted
because i only sell stuff for girls.

after i put down,
a guy came up to me asking for donations.
silver ribbon project.
although i had given just 2 days ago,
i gave again due to his persuading.
then.
he stuck out his handphone.
i was like: huh?
a donation of $4=free hp?
not bad!!
turns out he wanted my no.
-__-
but he was quite cute,
so i gave him my no.
lol.
but i told him that i wouldn't
reply to his messages.
so..the 2nd person that i gave my no to.
the 1st was out of sympathy,
and became a total disaster.
lemme relate it shortly:
i was being santarina, remember?
he was too shy so his friend was the one
who asked me.
yup.
he sent me msges occasionally.
you know, the kind where you forward
to everyone on this planet.
then one day, i think i accidentally deleted
his no. from my phone.
so i asked who he was.
and he acted real hurt that i forgot.
OH PLEASE.
get a life.

***

so anyway.
i got approached by another guy a second time.
he said: Hi. You are?
and i told him my name.
cos he was looking around my stall
so i thought he had something to ask
me and wanted to know how to address me.
and he gestured behind:
This is my brother Frank.
i spotted a mortified guy trying to
look as though he was really absorbed in his phone.
but really , all he probably wanted to do
was dig a hole in the ground and jump in.
Gosh.
and that stupid "introducer",
lets call him Dick,
was looking totally pleased with his
matchmaking efforts.
in fact he look as smug as one would at having
eradicated world-wide poverty.
i was super pissed.
ok to set the record straight,
they're both old.and fugly.
i mean not so pleasant looking.
(be polite, clara!)
just because Dick is slightly better
looking than his brother Frank
doesn't mean that he should take frank's
dying love life into his own grubby hands.
he prob thinks that his "good looks"
could get girls' attention more than frank's
so he is the one doing this rubbish.
i had on the politest get-out-of-my-face
look on my face.
and said:What.
Are you doing?
and dick hurriedly put on a fake smile
and made a "cool" gesture towards frank.
and said: you know, make friends?
i spun around and went back to my seat.
leaving him standing there looking like
the true loser he is.
ridiculous.

yup.
hope it was funny.
(it was to me, but maybe not so to Dicky dick)

later on again.
(no boys this time)
i met this lady.
the moment she found out that i was
friendly (i am to customers ok..)
she started talking.
and i mean talking.
she showed me her new phone, her extensive
photo album, and how to access the internet with it.
i was horrifed.
but continued smiling.
then she went on to tell me about her niece's job.
and then--she went on to her own working history,
all 30 + years of it.
and gave me this advice:
Be a generalist when you're young, then specialise
when you're old.
not bad advice.
then she talked about her current job of 7 years.
which is examining people's blood cells
and then giving them advice.
then she tried it out on me.
i'm an A+.
apparently, my blood is thick.
and prone to:
1)heart probs
2)stoke
3)cancer.
WOW, thanks!!
i really needed to know that -____-
and i have to take
1)multi vitamins
2)omega 3
3)enzymes.
then she went on to a lengthy explanation
of how cancer is formed,
how our brain transfers messages,
and how omega 3 is beneficial.
my god.
i nearly died.
it was like a bio class.
then she went on to teach me how to
do sales.
and she told me that she had done $1 million
of sales.
at first i was like whoa....

and finally.
final-freaking-ly.
she left.
then a sudden thought came to my head.
1 million.
is like selling 16 $60 000 cars.
which every car salesman is sure to have done.
and how about selling houses?
chey.

ok...
long post huh.
gonna sleep now.
working tomorrow!

clara.

2007-02-21T21:29:00.000+08:00

hows your cny been going?
this year my family totally ran
out of places to go;friends to visit.

but anyway here's how mine went.

Day -1.
Steamboat at my grandmum's place.
Let the gambling begin!
Day 1.
Family gathering at my place.snacking and gambling =x
Day 2.
Family gathering at my aunt's newly rented place.
4 mins walk from wisma atria,taka.
true city living at Paterson's Edge.
chic, small place.
oh.and guess who lives just downstairs?
David Gan.
But he's moving soon.
Security is super tight.
the lift only brings you to the designated floor.
and the price for all that extravaganza?
$5000/month.
Day 3.
Visited my mum's friend,went to
another aunt's place.

Day 4 would be today.
sleeping at 2 and waking up at 2 is
very confusing.
cos i wrongly reported for work today.
was so paiseh.
supposed to work tomorrow.
thank goodness my mum was in town,
so i went to meet her for shopping.
bought a shirt, a necklace, and pretty
strappy silver sandals.

i'm sick!
that's what cny goodies does to you.
sore throat.
and i felt an upcoming fever,
but a panadol solved that.

have you realised that drama serials
all come with a moral?
all too often you see that crimes
get you into endless trouble,
as do affairs too.
and the all too familiar pride-comes-before-a-fall
scenario.
often the villian is guilty of that.
sooo...
watch drama serials people!

wanna rest soon.
so i'll leave it to the few pics.

***

who says i take blurry shots rawr!!
there you go.
the rose.

macro mode.
blurry background.

yay.exposure shot again.
8 secs this time.and the orb
in the center is my cam flash.

that's all, till next time.

2007-02-16T16:23:00.000+08:00

i just posted.
but i forgot to include photos.
so here they are.

the strawberries look juicy.
they were.

a particularly vicious snake.

hah!
look at the guilty look on her face!

looks like she can only look and drool
under my watchful eyes!

my mum will kill me if
she finds out that the bird has
been prancing over the dining table.

now proceed to my actual post!

2007-02-16T14:34:00.000+08:00

who likes this song?
i do!
Evanescence-Exodus.
it starts off kinda sad but gets
a lil scary at the end with all the
echoes and what not.

wednesday i had a steamboat dinner
with my friends..
yes!! the first valentine's day
where i'm not stuck at home
watching channel 5 love comedies
and feeling like a loooser.
hehe.
but as everyone has so kindly pointed out
to me--its my own choice -__-
thank you to a certain friend who wrote
me a letter.
it made me tear up a lil.
*sniff*
i feel your love!
oh btw fyi,(lol 2 abbreviations side by side)
you said stay in contact..
remember now? ;)

so..
purpose of blogging.
to note down some happenings.
firstly,
tuesday night ( working )
on the way home i had the worst mrt ride home.
believe me,
its worst than some terrorist exercise
with mock suicide bombers jumping
out from corners and giving you
the fright of your life.
ok.
i was standing up,
there were no seats.
about 2 metres away from me
there was a man, late 30s.
dressed quite sharply.
there were many people between us.
(thank God!)
suddenly he almost fell.
a lady caught him.
at the point in time my guess
was that he fell asleep while standing.
lol.
possible right?
someone immediately offered him a seat.
just as things were returning to normal,
he suddenly...
vomitted all over the place.
it splattered from one side of the train to the other.
ewww.
it was dark brown with toffee coloured froth.
OK.
I'LL STOP.
i was expecting , you know,
the international vomit scent to hit me
in the face hard.
but.
BUT.
instead came the smell of liquor.
it was SO STRONG.
the man was soo embarrassed.
he cleaned everything up.
and thus i suffered that stench
(as did the surrounding people)
for the next 10 mins or so.

as i was relating this incident to my mum
she asked me:
why didn't you get down at the next stop?
and i felt like an idiot.
if only i had thought of that.
*groan*

topic switch.
i can almost smell the stench again.
anyways moral of the story:
don't drink and take public transport.
i know that contradicts every
"Don't drink and drive" advertisement.
but still, don't affect the public ok?!
Drink and walk home.
yeah.

on that same day,
tuesday afternoon while i was working,
i got approached by the supervisor
of an advertising firm.
they see me as a potential face for some
starhub ad.
yay!
but i'm too lazy to go for an interview leh.
someone kick me pls.

on a side note, i'm totally eyeing this:
http://www.louisvuitton.com/web/flash/index.jsp;jsessionid=12ZQ1GJCBGLGMCRBXUFFAGIKEG4RAUPU?buy=0&langue=en_GB
but haiyo,
565 dollars.
its the cost of a phone.but--
can last much longer.

my mum wants a bag.
her budget is 1k.
yay!
i recommended this to her:
http://www.louisvuitton.com/web/flash/index.jsp;jsessionid=12ZQ1GJCBGLGMCRBXUFFAGIKEG4RAUPU?buy=0&langue=en_GB
i hope she buys it.
1.1k.
so i can use it too!
muahaha!
i'm in need of a nice big bag too.

too lazy to write anymore, bye!

p.s: got my pay yesterday.
413 for half a month plus a couple of days.
not bad right?
and considering that i work like 2/3
times a week or so..

2007-02-12T12:59:00.000+08:00

To sum up yesterday:
An impromptu picnic and an
incident-inspired photoshoot.

sigh...
that's a happy sigh btw.
after this post i'll be going to post
my choices...
i bet the system will be laggy.
so..
1st-TP mass com.
2nd-NP mass com
3rd-SP mass com
4th-NYP mass com
5th-MJC!!

has anyone ever seen a more
peculiar choice list?
ok...on to the photographs!

I was absolutely convinced that this photo
was straight.
but somehow the horizon became
u-shaped.
nice shot nonetheless.

The coming in and going out of the tides.

and the trail that m.y and i left.

It slowly became dark.
funnily, there was no sunset.
like you can't see the sun slipping
slowly below the horizon -_-

if you click on this pic,

you'll see a white dot in the center.

and no,

its not dust on your monitor.

its a star!

the brightest one present.

i think its the northern star.

also known as sirius.

who says digi-cams can't capture stars?

so that you'll understand the next few shots,

here's an intro.

there is such a thing as long exposure

for cam shots.

meaning, you slower the shutter speed

so that the camera captures everything

that happens during the exposure

time and composes it into one shot.

take the below pic for example.

the long exposure captured a trail of car

taillights.

well, m.y was playing around with the cam,

when she took this photo.

it was a single star but because of the

long exposure she captured a trail of her

hand movement.

incredible, huh?

ok..

broke this post into 2 cos it became incredibly laggy!

onto the next post!

2007-02-12T11:10:00.000+08:00

I did a smile.
you have to click on it to see though.

m.y did this one..it really resembles

an arrow pointing at the top right hand

corner with a curly tail!

Then h.h tried it,

using the ship lights instead of the stars.

looks electrifying.

I gave it a try.not too bad eh?

Exposure 8 secs,
using the pub lights to a magical effect.

this could be a background for a blog =

Nice right?

=)

***

What an awwww--inspiring photo.
photos shot in the pitch dark
always look like oil paintings.
(don't look at me like that,
its my 17th lonely valentine,
what were you thinking?!)

notmenotme.
lol.
don't ask me who.
i don't know =)

***

And that wraps up beach shots.

***

on to the randoms!

Shot at s'pore expo.
when you look at photos like this,
you know, you JUST know..
that this world isn't the result of
a big bang.

0.0

You're staring at a gastronimical feast.

....

My most fav. meal in the world!

***

How's that?
My 2 potential phones on the same
page, same column.
actually they're valentine's day gifts..
but that's crazy ex!
anyways...if i buy the pink phone
i'll keep my current (aka 2 cells!)
but if i buy the black phone i'll
have just one.

what do you think?

***

Sometimes drinks look boring.

And then some spicing up would be in order.

and..........

Tada! Neon Blue drink!!

Actually i just popped it in front of a blue light
but you don't need to know that alright? ;)

End.
Clara.

thanks to contributors:
m.y, h.h.

2007-02-09T21:12:00.000+08:00

whoopee!
i must be one of the first few to blog
after the release of the results.
there's a lot going through my mind,
gotta 'dump' them here.
welcome to this vast rubbish chute called my 'blog'.

anyway..
my results was a shock.
and a pleasant one.
see?(told ya)
debating whether or not to post
my results here..
ok anyway,
excluding cca,
l1r5 of 13.
l1b4 of 10.
so...
that means i'm eligible for mass com.
temasek poly!
yay..here i come..
overall i had 3 distinctions,
4 B3s.
i hate the Bs.
english-A1,
Chem-A2...
and get this...GET this..
GET THIS!!!
Combined humans-A1.
i was totally speechless.
the silly thing which has given me sleepless
nights, that i was SURE i was gonna fail
gives me an A1!
All i knew was that i rocked s.s,
and for geog i wrote well, but wrote crap.
i was asked about global warming
and i talked endless about the greenhouse effect.
which are, 2 diff things, d-oh.
its puzzling..
and i'm so grateful to God.
All my prayers have been answered!

went out with m.y, h.h, and..er..
i-forgot-his-name.
-__-
yep..
basically we took neoprints
and put eyedrops in h.h's
infected eyes.
sleeping with contact lenses is..bad.
neoprints was hilarious..
it always seems to me that we're
unprepared...
but the end results were kinda nice..
and i wanna post them up...
but i dunno how to.
my scanner's down =(
maybe m.y can put them up..
and then i'll blog-lift..
(something like shoplift)

now that i got 13..
my mum started her
so-wasted-never-go-jc thing again.
haha.
and for a while i actually gave jc some consideration.
i'm eligible for meridian jc!
which is quite a gd jc..and my friend is there.
plus all the adults telling me to go to a jc.
that was a stumbling block..
but then i realised that if i go to a jc
i'll be doing it to please others, not myself.
and going with the flow means that one'll
get lost in the crowd.
i have to follow my heart...
even more so now that i have the
opportunity to do so.
these thoughts ran through my head for 3 mins.

i think i'll do the application form thing
tmr?
i bet its laggy right now =x

even as i'm celebrating, there will definitely
be others mourning.
and to them i can offer this word of advice
from oprah winfrey:
"Failure is God's way of nudging you towards another direction."

cheer up!

clara.

2007-02-05T20:08:00.000+08:00

sigh.things happen.
especially when you're online.
i'll start this post by warning maplers
about Covic.
He's a big scammer..a cheat.

well, just another ordinary day of mapling
at home..or so i thought.
my wand got hacked...
ahhh!!!
my wand!!
that cost about 70m.
i'm speechless.
how can people do this??
smile one day and cheat you the next.
what hypocrites..

probably the worst part of this
is that since i was the one using the
account when this incident happened...
i somehow became the one responsible, duh.
and that is so unfair.
and hurtful.

but don't these things happen in life all the time?
we have to take responsiblity for things
which we're not guilty of.
what's new??
we have to pay for others actions...
and the finger gets pointed to us.

enough.
i'm too tired and beaten to write anymore.

defeated,
clara.

p.s: to tagger no-one..
linked here through my friendster account, huh..
i sincerely thank you..
what a small world it is.
on another not-so-tragic day
your comment would have made me sooo happy.
it does cheer me up a little though..
thank you..
find beauty in yourself too..
i'm sure you're special.

2007-02-04T20:59:00.000+08:00

helloo..
9th feb is drawing nearer.
breathe easy ya??
people always get a shock when
they receive their results..
and i mean a pleasant shock..;)
chill and take life as it goes.
that's what i've been telling myself
over and over again.
if i don't make it to mass com in a poly,
(TOUCH WOOD!!)
(heh.
i'm not superstitious btw.)
i can study private too.
because,
mass com is an arena in which
the level of education doesn't matter,
or even the certificate.
its all about talent.
a dip holder will get a job at SPH
over a degree holder if he can write better.

something i was thinking about:
there are 2 kinds of pretty.
1 kind would be the jeanette aw
kind. the pleasant looking sweet type.
the other kind would be the stunning kind,
like dawn yang.
obviously i prefer the stunning kind.

went shopping today with my family,
excluding my brother.
i was a wee bit reluctant at first.
i hate shopping!
the crowd, the noise...
we went to bugis junction for a while.
then my sis's brilliant idea was to
go to bugis street..the pasar malam-like
place with supposed cheap and good bargains.
Oh.my.goodness.
the crowd there was unbearable.
ren shan ren hai, as the chinese would say.
it stank =::::( ,
and i wonder how many times people
touched my butt.
?_?
arrrgh...
i stood at a corner with my dad while
my sis dragged my mum into the sea of people.
crazy.i'll never shop there.
the clothes are just...not my cup of tea.
but the prices are good for sure.
with the price i normally pay for a
piece of clothing i can get many pieces
of clothing there -_-
give me a shopping centre anytime...
i'm hunting for formal shorts.
the nice ones are at topshop.
but i wouldn't pay close to
a hundred for shorts!!

anyway to sum up my purchases
for the day, just 2.
fake eyelash glue,from bugis street,
and a shirt from outfitter girls
in bugis junction
that says...
Dreams do come true
when you're hot.

i fancy it loads.
and isn't it true?
lol.

experiment for the day:
wearing shades.
i wore shades today.
and the result of the experiment...
no diff.
people still observe me.
for instance while i was waiting for my sis
2 ladies just wouldn't stop talking about me.
even my dad noticed.
am i that nice to talk about?
i hate prying eyes.

teenagers these days are sad cases.
girls that look 15 walk around with
lovebites on their necks.
i really can't stand it when they
flaunt it.
there's nothing great about fooling around.
and it just makes them look low class.
wear a collar for pete's sake.

the world is getting a warped idea
of what's cool and what's not.

it struck me today that soon
all my good friends will be gone..sob.
how great it was to see them
almost everyday in school.
we're all at crossroads again..
and not everyone will be going
the same way...

ok..i just have to get this thought
out of my head.
divide an even number, X, by half
and subtract 1.
call the result Y.
then subtract Y from X,
to get Z.
note that 4 is the only number
in which Y is 3 times that of Z.
yup.
random thought.
future theorem?
maybee... ~_^

clara.

2007-02-02T12:53:00.000+08:00

Cherry chocolate cake for breakfast.

It feels like eternity since i last blogged.
i've been busy working!
i'll relate harrowing experiences later.

was flipping through urban,
when i saw something so beautiful
that it almost made me cry.
www.lgpradaphone.com
they have collaborated...
and come up with such a sleek baby.
and the best part===
there's NO BUTTONS AGAIN!!
just like my chocolate.
except that its touch screen.
one thing about people who use
touch sensitive phones is that they either
hate it or love it.
and if they hate it,
they'll go back to buttons but if they love
it they'll be repulsed by buttons.
and i just so happen to love it ;)
i want this phone!!
launching end of next month or so.
but...but...
its $1 K ++++
-_-''''''''
never mind.
where there's a will there's a way =)

right.
on to work.
if i was given a dollar for everytime someone
asks me for directions, i'll be $150 richer.
oh and i understand why local women
want to marry expats.
they can be so thoughtful.
always showering their wives
and kids with gifts.

OH btw my colleage's sis works in...
you know..M..
OE.
shh..
inside info says 10 feb for results release.
but the students themselves are saying 5th feb.
so its still uncertain.

yesterday i was serving some rich customers.
they were from vietnam or something.
a couple and their son who was in his late 20s.
not bad looking, in fact like a korean actor.
decked out in a suit.
they had a lady who was escorting them,
showing them around.
while his mum bought stuff ($400++!!)
the son stood at one side,
looking at me.
it was uncomfortable.
but heck, life had to go on,
and i had some customers to serve!
after his mum was done they walked away.
the son trailed behind, walked up to me,
and whispered in my ear:
thank you.
it sent shivers down my spine.
of the negative kind.
i just ignored him.

AHHHHHH!!!!
it was pissing me off and he knew it.
someone pls bury this brat in a rice padi or something.
whatever vietnam has more of.
and just as he walked off,
my mum came over to visit me
and asked me who that guy was.
!0_0!
did it look that bad?

in the morning there was this lady
who kept praising me for no reason.
i was wondering why, and then she suddenly tried
to tell me about her son that she was going to pick
up later.
she went on and on and......
i was so grateful when customers came and
i had to serve them,
thereby ending the "introduction"
session.
horror of horrors!!
matchmaking your son!

i've gotta run, work later..
4-10.
no more weird people,
have mercy on me.

2007-01-27T22:58:00.000+08:00

omgomgomgomg.
i'm having post-O-jitters.
what's new??
every night its the last thing i
fret about before i sleep.
and i've had several nightmares before.
people don't understand why i'm
so scared about it.
the reason why i'm so worried is
that i totally screwed up elec geog,
which is 50% of combined humans
WHICH has to be counted in for mass comm.
everywhere.
its the only thing thats making me scared.
i'm really ok with the rest.

ok,
topic switch.
you know, its a total joke to me
when people threaten to ruin their lives.
confused??
some e.gs:
1) Mom: You can't use the computer for the next week!
Son: If you don't let me use it i'll skip school!!

2) Guy: I really don't love you anymore...
Girl: If you don't love me i'll kill myself!!

3) Guy: If my boss doesn't promote me
i'll rather quit and live on the streets!!!

...

funny??
its their own loss if they carry out their threats.
one thing about most of these threats (e.g 1,2)
is that they
can only be carried out on the people who
love and care for you.
try such threats on a stranger.
he'll scoff and walk away.
why?
cos its your own life that you are messing
up, none of his business.

only the people who are concerned about
you will actually appease you in order
to avoid your carrying out these threats
because your future and your life matters
to them.
and that's precisely why i can't stand such
people.they're misusing other people's love
and taking advantage of it to manipulate them.
if this is what people get in turn for
loving you, i suggest they abandon you.

looking back at e.g 1,
the mother son scenario,
i'll say: if you don't study hard,
its your own loss.you'll be the one
suffering in the future.

for e.g 2,
the boy girl scenario,
i'll say: if you're going to forsake
your life over a guy, maybe its true
that your life isn't worth living.

for e.g 3,
the angry worker scenario,
i'll say: grow up.put aside your pride.
you're working for others,
you're not your own boss.

and clearly the worker thinks very highly
of himself, as though his contribution
is essential for the company's survival.
there are honestly loads more hardworking people
out there.

****

you know how people are always arguing
about which sex has it better in life??
a.k.a male vs female

actually its all fair.
most people claim that girls
are pampered, never need to get their hands dirty,
are far more luckier than guys.
true.
but...
girls also suffer from monthly annoyances,
are placed in charge of reproducing (good grief!),
and have to worry about appearances.
and somehow the guy always has the last say,
the dominance.
plus girls are always at a disadvantage no matter what.
SO, in return for all that sh*t, girls get treated better
to make up for all the unfairness.
and that is where the guy's disadvantages come in.
slogging their whole lives to support their family,
seeing a girl home to ensure her safety,
pampering her.
and not to forget NS!!
muahaha.

its all fair and square.

****

i don't understand why people are so
shocked when i say that i'm not fond of kids.
i mean, are all girls supposed to like kids??
here's my logic.
some people like animals, some people don't.
likewise, some people like kids,
some people don't.

****

i know this entry is all over the place,
but every row of ******
is like a division.
of a diversion.
or whatever.

goodnight.

2007-01-26T13:19:00.000+08:00

its nearing feb..
meaning that the jc people
are settling in well and that
the dreaded results are being
released soon..

anyone got any outside info
as to when it'll be released?
;)
or maybe the release date last year,
so i can brace myself.

super boring these past few days.
i was supposed to work on wed
and thurs, and supposed to earn
about $100..but i had gastric again.
and i had been eating properly..
sigh.
i suppose once it attacks..
it'll always drop by for a visit every
now and then.

i've been thinking about it.
and yup i'm interested in giving modelling
a shot...
but i don't wanna pay for a portfolio!!
ahhh!!!!!
its like $500??
within the past 6 months 6 or more
people have told me to give it a shot.
the $$ is not bad too.
$400 for a 40 min photoshoot?
woah!
what i really really want to do is runway..
but i'm too short =(
they need 168 and above i think..
i need to grow 6/7 cm.
so anyone...wants to take a trip to an agency?
wonder if my parents will allow.
they keep harping on people getting cheated.
-_-"

anyway, for your entertainment,
here you go..
MUST WATCH!! super duper funny!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4uG85Oaca_o

its aroused some anger,
but honestly, people shouldn't be so serious.
lighten up,
no one is making fun of anyone..
we're laughing at the antics,
not the religious taboo.
its all in your own mind.

enjoy!

clara.

p.s/ short post,
i'll let the video do the talking!

2007-01-23T20:23:00.000+08:00

went to sentosa with my parents and some
other people.
my parents were looking for a place to hold
some function in.
sentosa has changed so much, its been 1.5 years
since i last went there.
should go there with my friends sometime soon.
there's so much more to sentosa than beaches.
and i totally miss underwater world.

tomorrow might be an interesting day.
working.

the point i'm gonna make today is:
if you want people to listen to you,
you better be a reflection of what you preach.
get it??
several e.gs:
1) If bill gates and a beggar were to preach
about ways to get rich, whose seminar
would you go to??
2) If kelly clarkson and william hung were to
teach singing methods, whose seminar whose
you go to??
3) If a university lecturer or an uneducated fellow
were to give you tuition, whom would you choose??

of course the one who specialises in the said topic.

have you ever encountered people who told
you to do something this way when their own
life was the opposite??
infuriating, isn't it??
you feel an incredible urge to say:
say people say yourself!!!!
you tell me to study hard while you're slacking??
you tell me to save $$ when you're splurging $$??
like hell am i gonna listen to you.
i'll smile and nod my head but inside i'm
going "noo waaaay..."

also there exists some people who live life one way
but then when they live it another way they slam the
previous way.
e.g:
X used to be thrifty.
but one day X started spending $$ on branded stuff,
and says:life is short, spend $$ while you still can.
that's fine.
but then X proceeds to slam thrifty people:
all these people..save save save.
they'll die before they get to spend their $$,
so STUPID.
i get irritated at these walking contradictions.
and maybe i would poke fun at X, saying:
you used to save $$ too...
and X would say:
ya lah..i was not so smart...being stingy.
and then one day when X runs out of $$,
X will slam people who spend $$,
saying: they're so DUMB, next time for sure
they'll have no future!!!
stay small house, drive small car.

grrr.
in short, they promote whatever they are and slam
the opposite of what they are.
get a life.

clara.
xoxoxo

2007-01-20T22:28:00.000+08:00

how has life been treating you people lately??

been working on thurs and fri.
tiring but rewarding.
fri was entertaining though.
there was some pre chinese new year
celebration.maybe i just don't appreciate
them, but they were rather awful.
in particular, one of the dance items.
it involved many girls decked out in
some egyptian like costume which
was so orange, it couldn't be any more orange.
basically they surrounded a man.
now, this man was singing...
some weird language.
actually he was wailing,
to be exact.
whatever it was, it was cringe worthy.
and if their intent was to wake the dead, they
sure did.
one amazing performance was that of
a man.
he could whistle just like a bird.
without moving his lips.

enough about that.
had any embarrassing moments lately?
i've had my fair share.
one prominent one was as follows:
i had just alighted from my mum's car
with my sis.
then, i spotted the cutest mynah ever.
you know, the black bird.
it was small, fat, and round as a ball.
couldn't help it..
i squealed and chased it around.
then after it flew away i turned around
and saw 2 guys staring at me,
dumbfounded.
-_-''
was so paiseh man!

recently there's a show called the arena..
like a debate among schools.
one topic was:"teenagers are self-centred, do you agree?"
or something like that.
my answer is, YES.duh.
no doubt about it.
there ARE some teens who aren't self-centred,
but those are usually the minority.
there are much more paris hiltons in the
world than angelina jolies.
one e.g.
just one.
after a taking a group shot,
when you look at the photo,
who do you look at first?
i rest my case.
that's why people are like"eee..that photo is not nice".
when actually its just that they took a bad shot,
and everyone else looks ok.
do you think that most of us lets
the happenings of the world affect us?
nope, unless we are affected directly.
tsunami, so what?
our lives still go on.
only the minority actually offers their aid.
its a dog eat dog, cat eat cat world,
and people learn to watch their own backs.
we're brought up to be self centred.
our parents teach us to share.
yup the key word is share.
would your parents tell you to give
up all you have to others and suffer yourself?
hardly...
they love you and wouldn't want you to suffer.
sometimes love brings about selfishness too.
its inevitable.
narcissistic we are.

in a bid to get readers to tag..
i'll launch this thing.
called Q of the day.
where i ask you a question,
and you give an answer on the tagboard.
come on, say you'll do this pleaaase?
Q of the day:
What depicts love to you?
like what image makes you think about L.O.V.E?

yup..

my answer is somewhat surprising.
it would be seeing people sharing a newspaper
on the train.
as in, one person is reading while the other
is reading over his/her shoulder.
and he/she knows it, but is ok with it.
that mutual comfort screams love to me,
and i get a warm fuzzy feeling inside.

how about you??

clara.
xoxoxo

the exterior of a person may change,
but what matters is that the interior remains
the same.
so there.

2007-01-18T13:18:00.000+08:00

i'll be working later.
but i'm so zz tired cos last night
i tried something stupid.
i looked out of the window.
there were sooo many stars,
best of all, the orion constellation
was finally in sight after its weird cycle.
so..
i decided that i'll sleep on the couch.
i couldn't sleep till 3 am.
the wind was too chilly.
and there were crazy people sounding
their horns at such an unearthly hour.
finally gave up,
and went back to my room.
haunted by an absolutely freakish nightmare.

oh.btw.
i'll be going to tp for their open house on sat.
around 2+?
who else is going?
or are you all slacking around -_-.

better go get ready.
bye,
clara.

did anyone read the sunday times?
people can make thousands from maplestory
in mere months...HMMM........

go tag people!!

2007-01-15T16:46:00.000+08:00

right.
sigh.
bad day..
btw i blogged yesterday..
i think the last part is interesting.
go read!

photolog today cos i'm not feeling up
to writing a lot.
i'm sick =(
went to the doc today.
i woke up in the morning with
a sharp pain ripping through
my stomach every few seconds.
at first i went:
^%#^&$ FOOD POISONING!!

turned out to be gastric..
due to irregular meals.
like i'll wake up at 12, eat at 2,
skipping breakfast.
but i really can't bring myself to
eat anything in the morning.
even if you plop crab in front of me i
won't touch it.
plus i tend to skip meals then eat a lot at a time,
thus screwing up my system.
had to eat a chewable pill.
it tasted like solid colgate.YUCK.

ok, i'll let the pics do the talking now.
blah.
my stomach hurts like HELL.

Recent activity...
something like rock climbing..
but with no ropes.
it was some shophouse converted
to this place..

gosh.one hand!

photoshoot time!

model of the day: Rainbow

IT WAS REALLY HARD.

SHE KEPT FIDGETTING.

shot 1 was baad.

i macroed the cage bars instead

of her.

but i think her cuteness made up for it.

Take 2.much better.

........

What a short attention span -_-

She started day dreaming.

Alright, lets wrap up this photoshoot.

jiggled the cam to get her attention.

Hear that??

Aww she's sooo cute.

And i'll leave you with a lil' joke...

Actually we only died cos we bumped into boss.

but those flame throwing dogs made things worse too =(

k bye.

clara.

2007-01-14T19:46:00.000+08:00

not-so-boring day.
shall post with pics at a later date..
it takes too long.

my CS skills have deproved sharply.
why?
cos my brother changed his mouse to
some imported one, razer diamondback.
and..its a gamers mouse.
which means..
high sensitivity...
its like using an ice cube as a mouse.

anyways...
i never realised pc bunk was so ex!
my friend said it costs like $5 an hour,
as compared to other places which
charge $2..
but cos its double exp..
my brother has a membership card.
and when he played for 1/2 hour,
he paid like a dollar or so?

see the diff??

i was just thinking that i should pick up horse riding!
like for real, not just trail riding.
but the 2 clubs in s'pore charge a nifty 5 figure membership
fee before one can even take lessons on its premises.
so..
i called up the gallop stables.
which is a new stable at pasir ris park.
$400 for lessons..like around 8 lessons..
i can pay for that myself!
but..
she said that i'll have to purchase the gear..
around $250.
the price is really very subsidised..
but the thing is..what on earth do i do with them?
this will be just a hobby,
i think the gear will become a white elephant at home.

why can't they just loan gear?
i'll sign up for it in a jiffy.
i mean..
my tuition used to cost $540 ++
a month..
this is $400, and its for the whole course.
one little problem..
gallop stable uses ponies.
many people mistaken ponies to be
baby horses..i used to too.
but actually..its just a smaller horse.
so you can like have a 15 yr old pony.
i prefer horses loads more...
they're bigger..
much bigger.
they run faster and they're more handsome!
i wanna have a horse of my own.
it'll be black, a she, and her name will be ragdoll.
oh well...
maybe some other time.

have you ever encountered such people in life before?
i can't stand them.

they promote themselves when they're good,
and hide away when the going is bad.
confused?
here's an e.g..
i'll call the person X.
X has not done her homework.
and when one of the classmates
mentions homework,
she goes: eh don't tell teacher!
i think she has forgotten..
i didn't do anyway.shhh...thanks!

everyone is guilty of doing that
at some point in their lives.its ok.

but then...
one day, X has done her homework.
and even though many others have not done theirs
too, X waves her hand and calls out:
Teacher! i've completed the homework
you assigned!!

grrrr.

one more e.g.
X has just gotten her allowance.
X goes out with her friends to the movies.
X loves the movies.

by the end of the week,
X is broke, and unable to go to the movies.
so guess what?
X disses the movies.
she says:
going to the movies is such a waste of money and time!
we should just rent a movie.
plus when you go to the movies you have
to buy food and drinks..
i think its not worth it.

and the last e.g:
X has always wanted to attend abc jc.
but when her results come out..
alas!
she can't make it and instead attends xyz jc.
and X says:
abc jc is so lousy..
luckily i didn't go there..
the teachers suck and the students
are all so proud.

tada.
just the sort of person i can't stand.

clara.
xoxoxo

2007-01-12T23:20:00.000+08:00

Howlite.Lion eye.Aquamarine.Coral.
my head is buzzing.
i've just returned from work!
10-10.
12 hours. standing in heels.
oh and i sold an $89 necklace and
a $10 bracelet.
which gives me..$1 commission.
-_-
i have come to realise that majority
of buyers are tourists.
one splurged $300 on a necklace!
the diff. between locals and tourists
is that locals buy whatever is cheaper,
while tourists buy whatever they like more.
which is actually a smarter shopping method.

not working till next week thurs, fri.
i wanna go out a lot !!!
and play cs a lot !!
oh btw i've mastered it.
easy peasy.
2 steps.
1)always hang out in a group.
2)buy the most ex. rifle.
my score is always the highest in the team!
except...i never have anything to do with
the bomb.
i play counter-terrorist anyway.
C-T all the way!

i haven't seen mingyue for so long =(

o results are drawing nearer..
i'm scared ok!
esp. cos i'm aiming for a specific course.
don't tell me i have to study private?
or even worst, overseas.
but overseas studies are super speedy,
cos you get to jump years!
i know of a 17 yr old who is in uni!
and a 16 yr old who is approaching a levels fast.

life in s'pore with its gruelling education system
promises everyone a stereotypical life.
finish uni...20+ years old?
work.
save like hell.
get married.
have children.
die.

sad much?

....
clara.

2007-01-11T12:14:00.000+08:00

RAWR!
I'm mad.
last night blogger was bugging me
to switch to the newer version..
so i did...
and if you were here last night,
you would have seen that some
silver blogger bar was blocking the
box which was the thing you
click to access my entries.
so..
changed my skin.
took like 2 hrs to find
something not too emo,
or worse of all, containing
some chio caucasian chick
which has zero relevance at all
to the skin.
the skin is..ok i guess.
except that the blog table span is small.
what makes me happy is the song playing!

Evanescence-Anywhere.
it gets cut off somewhere near
the end..but still its nice ain't it?

clara.

2007-01-10T21:25:00.000+08:00

my sis and i are diggin' evanescence's anywhere.
super duper nice song!

last night i went to cineleisure with
h.h to play pool!!
does that sound exciting?
not exactly..
all the coloured balls seemed to be blind
'cept for the white one,
which heads straight for the hole without fail.
oh i highly recommend old chang kee's
yam pie!
its very nice.and cheap.

we were at some traffic light junction,
when h.h thought this whole group of'ah bengs were
gonna ask for my number.
i glanced over, and when the lights turned green
i crossed the road while mantaining
a far far distance from them.
surely that says: no, not interested?

after that h.h went home,
while i went to meet my parents
who were shopping around there.
and...had a second dinner at
newton food centre.
obviously that place is meant for tourists,
everything is so ex compared to elsewhere.

today i went shopping with my mum
at suntec.
nothing compares to weekday-shopping.
its so quiet.and when its quiet, service is always better.
bought clothing from guess(sales!)
and fox(sales!).
i love sales.

oh and since i don't like people looking at me,
i decided that a pair of shades would do the trick.
i totally fell in love with a guess one but....
it was $230.
i will never pay that much for a pair of shades!
even though it had nice crystals embedded at the sides.
so...
i bought another pair from some pushcart for $22.
see the diff?
so now i can hide away from the world's prying eyes!!
muahaha!

but h.h said something which i thought made sense.
she said:"if you don't want people to look at you,
then why do you want to become pretty?"
welll.......
i don't know.

out,
clara.

p.s: gonna play counterstrike now.
i must master it...i must spot the cursor
when the enemy strikes!

2007-01-09T14:52:00.000+08:00

at least today i'll have only half
a boring day, i hope.

i agree fully with what a newspaper once wrote.
that people who kai kou bi kou:
"beauty is in the eye of the beholder"
are usually ugly.
its like their mantra.

yup.
today i'm gonna talk about mantras.
in the form of what people keep
telling themselves.
sort of what they live by.

the one which gets me uber pissed is this:
i'm imperfect....yaddayadda kind of whiner.
these type of people are rampant on the net.
they make their lives sound so pitiful.
like the whole world has wronged them.
gosh.
i mean, YES, people are imperfect.
we say or do things which we shouldn't.
we sin badly.
BUT:
its an entirely different thing to use
it as an excuse for all your shortcomings.
so why don't we all go around stealing,
murdering, doing all kinds of evil
and when we get caught we'll say:
i'm sorry but its not my fault.
i'm imperfect.
stupid right?
whether you're imperfect or not you'll
still get thrown behind bars.
YES, our imperfections cause us to do wrong
at times.
but we can't give our imperfections free rein.
we do have a thing called conscience.
and usually it tugs at our heartstrings just
before we do something bad.
so what we have to do is to be more
sensitive to our conscience,
and not ignore it.
e.g before stealing something,
you go: should i do this?
what if i get caught?
that's your conscience.
listen to it.
i have always believed that YES,
people do have flaws..but their strengths
make up for them.

do yourself a favour.
never never live by that mantra please.

ANTM is showing.
gotta run!

btw i woke up to a funny message from kat
guessing who i was crushing on.
hopelessly inaccurate!
but i finally spilled to her.
and i know its in good hands!!

cya soon!
Clara.

Your Birthdate: November 14

You work well with others. That is, you're good at getting them to do work for you.
It's true that you get by on your charm. But so what? You make people happy!
You're dynamic, clever, and funny. And people like to have you around.
But you're so restless, they better not expect you to stay around for long.

Your strength: Your superstar charisma

Your weakness: Commitment means nothing to you

Your power color: Fuchsia

Your power symbol: Diamond

Your power month: May

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

2007-01-08T12:57:00.000+08:00

haha.
effing learn how to spell your interests!!

right.
woke up at 12 15pm.
which is kind of like a record.
and by record i mean earliest, not latest.
blogging so soon but cos so
many people tagged..
i know that my prev. post
has been read and now i can move on.

right.
only in november did i start
having an allowance.
and i tell you, its super shiok.
because in the past i used to take $$
directly from my dad's wallet,
and of course i only took it when i needed it.
which was very rare, cos i hardly ever go out.
and back then, i didn't have any savings..
wouldn't you feel bad to take $$ from your dad
and save it??
that's not really savings right?
so..with this allowance, $$ just keeps coming in!
finally i can start saving for the future.
my sis also started having an allowance.
but for her it was a loss..
because she used to take $20 or so a day!

yesterday was an uber BORING day.
the morning was ok.
i went to church with my sis,
came back myself cos she had bible study.
the journey home took 1 hr +.
zz.and for the rest of the day i had absolutely nothing
to do.
so i blogged.
then at night i got my brother to teach me
how to play counterstrike.
for only a while, cos it was a disaster!
i hate how jerkish the screen gets when
the character moves around,
so i usually camp.
and when the enemy comes,
the stupid cursor is so small that i take a while
trying to find it.
and by the time i find it i'm already dead.
so..moving on to game no 2.
dug out need for speed hot pursuit.
that was much better..
i suck as a police officer.
laying spikes and roadblocks...
but yet failing to catch the culprits.
and worse of all the police car is so slow
compared to the culprits..

since like last year i promised myself
that the first car i drive will be a sports car.
one of my traits is that i'm a very patient person.
i wait for the best.
anyways..if i buy some other car first, i'll be wasting money.
cos the resale value is always lower.

last night i couldn't get to sleep again!!
its frustrating.
i think that my whole schedule is
upside down thanks to the hols..
cos i watch tv..shows like Dr 90210
till 2 am..
so when i try to sleep at 1++, i usually
can't.
my best cure for insomnia is walking around my house.
and its quite scary, even though my house
isn't big.
cos the trees cast weird shadows on the walls.
that indeed look like hands trying to grab your own
shadow.
gosh. that's so pri. sch essay.
and then i usually open the window a little.
then cold cold wind seeps in.
and i stare at the sky for a while,
think until i get tired, then crawl back to bed.
not literally.

oh and last night i had a super real dream
that i got plastic surgery.
it was a very entertaining dream.

meaningless post.
but i'm bored again.
working this friday, helping
out at my prev. church this thursday.
girls out loud is tonight!
do catch it!

oh and i wanna go to pc bunk..
anyone interested?
cos i'm sure as hell not going alone!
its ah-beng-ah-lian galore there!

clara.

2007-01-07T16:21:00.000+08:00

Ok wow.
i took like 1/2 hr to load all the photos.
and worst of all the photos have to be
loaded like from the last to the first so
i have to plan my entry beforehand.
tiring.

i've been blogging a lot eh?
be grateful, haha.
whenever my friends ask me about
one of my prev. posts i'm always so blur.
why?..cos i blog too much, firstly.
secondly, i empty my thoughts here.
its like draining my brain.

anyways, yesterday=class bbq.
4 I '06 tms.
i reached later than most ppl,
no one really knew why.
actually its cos i don't want to
go anywhere near the sun,
where my fairness will be in mortal danger.
hehe.
its so easy to become tan
but sooo hard to get fair.
in fact i didn't swim in 2006 at ALL..
record huh??
and the swimming pool is just at my doorstep.

ok nuff girls rant.

we booked pit 55.
it was kind of deep in.
and very muddy.

ate a little, mostly fed the cat.

I played TT with
JW,MY,E.
i suck at it.
i can have 3 2s and still lose.
incredible.
i hardly ever strategise.

look!
i know people always advise against it,
but I LIKE TO LOOK UP TREES AT NIGHT!
anyways. it was pitch dark.
tried my luck, put the flash on
and..i get something that looks like
an oil painting.
i hope you don't see anything scary in the picture.
muahaha.

took this pic much earlier.
used the horizon as my guide
so that the pic would be straight.
its still crooked.what the heck.
i miss the beach!!
actually i only miss the quiet ones.
i find sentosa's beaches too crowded
for my liking.
more for people-spotting,
not sight-seeing.

and OH. i love this pic.
peculiar angle.lopsided world.
i do like it when dark clouds mingle
with light ones.
cos light shines brighter in darkness.

after we'd run out of things to do..
yewf started crapping.
and to be honest, i enjoyed it so much.
and gosh..how can some guys just
judge a girl by her...
never mind. ;)
i want to hire yewf as my personal entertainer.

oh mental note:
h.h is a news broadcaster.
i was dying of embarrassment.
oh man!!

clara's guide on tackling crushes.
1) Don't tell anyone. (haha)
but seriously ah..how.
i'm not a gutsy person
and just like every normal human,
i dread rejection too.
ouch.
btw do you know that i pick
my crushes veryvery carefullyy.
to the point that even now i still
have fond feelings for previous
crushes as long as 5, 6 years back.
gasp.
i can't picture myself putting my
affection for ____ on display.
like h.h and her idol. -_-
don't name names anymore...
just use _____.
=D ok??
because the net is a small place.

help lah people.
oi.
and by help i don't mean by
telling ____.
pls.
that's the last thing i want.
its insincere anyway,
to pass messages.

oh and the 2nd worst thing is to tell
other people about it.
=(
that's bad.

i've been giving you people
some help getting through life ( i hope! )
help me back now!

back to the pics.

on one of my insomnia-ridden nights,
i snapped this pic.
quite risky.
i had to hold the cam
out of my window and tilt it
here and there.

long overdue pics.
010107.
relative gathering at my place.

my cousin found a toad in the field.
i think it likes his hand.
believe it or not,
i held it for 1/2 hour.
cold yes, but not slimy.

My neighbour took his rabbit out for
a stroll.
isn't it a darling??
i hugged it today.

zoomed all the way.
this kite was a minute dot in the sky.

don't you think that a kite is
a very symbolic thing?

just for the record,
i'm HOT, not a scumbag!!
gosh.
no hard feelings.
we can still be friends.

sigh.
i've been sighing a lot lately.
put an end to my misery.
advise in the cbox, ty.!

clara.
xoxoxo

2007-01-05T17:39:00.000+08:00

hmph.
why wasn't this song in the local edition of the cd??
anyways...
beautiful song.

Evanescence-
The last song i'm wasting on you.

(i love the title.don't you?)

Sparkling grey
Through my own veins
Any more than a whisper
Any sudden movement of my heart
And I know, I know I'll have to watch them pass away

Just get through this day
Give up your way, you could be anything,
Give up my way, and lose myself, not today
That's too much guilt to pay
Sickened in the sun
You dare tell me you love me
But you held me down and screamed you wanted me to die
Honey you know, you know I'd never hurt you that way

You're just so pretty in your pain

Give up my way, and I could be anything
I'll make my own way
Without your senseless hate....hate...hate.....hate

So run, run, run
And hate me, if it feels good
I can't hear your screams anymore

You lied to me
But I'm older now
And I'm not buying baby

Demanding my response
Don't bother breaking the door down
I found my way out

And you'll never hurt me again

there you go.
and its hard to find this song anywhere.
so listen to it on youtube, my new fav webby.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hym3DPiz9c0

btw i plucked my eyebrows today.
and whilst enduring the pain i remembered
how one journalist so aptly described
the experience.
he said:
imagine taking a peaceful stroll on the beach,
watching the sunset and hearing the birds sing.
when all of a sudden a swarm of wasps attack you.

how true.
cos the chair is really comfy and all,
but when the plucking begins...OW.
OWOWOW.

clara.

2007-01-04T19:10:00.000+08:00

hola!

dreadfully rainy day today.
went for a pedicure 2 days back,
now my toenails are a neon strawberry pink.
i've called my mum's friend.
the next time i work will be next friday,
10-10.
12 hours!!
i think i'm gonna fall asleep halfway.
i think xiaxue's latest post is excellent.
i'll leave you to find out why.
;)

i have just realised that i set crazy standards
for myself.
in almost all aspects of my life.
like looks, height(but tt's not really in my control),
dressing,even singing.
take for instance,
i aspire to sing like amy lee
from evanescence.
but anyone who listens to evanescence
knows that she has a crazy voice range,
from the lowest to soprano.

there is, obviously,
a good and bad side to setting
high standards for oneself.
most people would look at the bad:
"But if you never achieve it, wouldn't you
be so disappointed with yourself??"
Yes.
i constantly am disappointed with myself.
but because i set high standards for myself,
i tell myself that just as long as i'm close to
my goal i'm already a success.
and most importantly, i do not condemnn
myself. because my life isn't ending the next second.
there is always room for improvement.
i don't dwell on it.i move on.
but dissatisfaction brings about motivation
to improve oneself, doesn't it??

that's why i'm my biggest critic.

some people may find it dumb
to be so overtly critical of themselves.
of course, there is a need for satisfaction!
sometimes when i see improvement
in aspects of my life i get satisfied.
i give myself a little rein, let loose for a while,
and feel contented.
but soon i'll be back on track again,
because i naturally get dissatisfied again,
NOT because i force myself to do so.
like when i'm not disciplined and skip
my crunches at night,
(yes i do at least 50)
i will automatically start doing it.
i don't have to force myself.

yep.
i daren't set low standards for myself,
lest i get complacent and remain there
with no improvements whatsoever.

besides, i've always lived by this saying
that my pri sch teacher told me:
Aim for the sky, fall on the tree.
Aim for the tree, fall to the ground.
when i tell people my aspirations, etc
sometimes they scorn me.
i'm used to it by now, because i ain't
a low-aimer.
but anyway, people who don't conform
to the stereotypical society always
get criticised anyway.

but i think we should all dare to dream.
one life.
ONE.
on earth.
sometimes i think its a blessing
to be born in this sunny lil island.
cos its much easier to shine here.
lesser competition in terms of people,
don't you think so?
hmm.
food for thought , people!!

clara.
xoxoxo

p.s: don't complain about our country any more!

pps: why can't i bring myself to do it??
open a window, type it and press the enter key.and wait.
shh.

2007-01-03T21:00:00.000+08:00

so its back to school for the jc/mi people.
mi is always in a category of its own ,huh?

nothing much happening right now
in my life. but a few nights ago
i watched this reality show on channel V
called Parental Control.
Basically, on that episode,
some 21 yr old guy was dating a girl
called rebecca.
but his parents don't like rebecca cos she's
supposedly 'needy'.
she's studying and sometimes needs the guy
to pay her bills for her, which is what
makes the guys parent's unhappy.
so...
his parents audition girls to be his next
potential girlfriend.
and then the guy will have to choose between
the 3 girls. his old gf, and the 2 new ones.
the mum and dad each pick one.
the dad's date was fine.
a pale, smiley girl who is
spontaneous and nice.
for their date she takes the guy hula dancing.
nice choice by the father.
but the mum's choice was certainly
questionable.
she chose this pretty, HOT girl (Taylor)
for the son, almost as though she
wanted taylor to seduce her son
away from rebecca.
and taylor had that b*tch face.
you can just see it in girls sometimes.
so before their date,
rebecca told the guy:
NO kissing.
the guy promised.
and guess what taylor chose to do
during the date??
pole-dance.
lap-dance.
take the guy out on a picnic,
put honey on her lips and get
the guy to kiss her.
gawd.

at this point i realised how cruel the show
was. throughout all these dates rebecca
and the guy's parents are watching them
through the TV.
yes, they know they are being filmed.
and rebecca cried when she saw
the guy kissing taylor.
nasty much??
this made me very mad indeed.
at the guy, firstly.
how could he??
giving in to his whimsical carnal needs
just like that, succumbing to temptation.
i can't blame rebecca for tearing.
i mean, is it fun to watch your bf
kissing another girl?
damn him.

and secondly, i got mad at the guy's mum
for picking taylor, knowing fully that
the attraction between them would be
sexual.
hello??
STD??
one important lesson in life that
every parent should impart to their child
is that love and sex are 2 different things.
damn her!!
she was so b*tchy during the entire show,
hurling sarcastic remarks at rebecca.
as a grown up, shouldn't she be more sensitive??

and the final result:
the guy chose taylor.
rebecca stormed out of the house.
can anyone blame her??
how can one just end a relationship
like that?
that guy is certainly an unfeeling creature.

talking about this is maddening.

bye.

2006-12-31T15:37:00.000+08:00

read something funny in the newspaper today.
disclaimer: i don't believe in these.
Scorpio (thats me) :
Lets face it.You can be pretty intimidating.
Your intellect is top-notch, and you have
a million great ideas running through your head.
Think kind and friendly thoughts when
dealing with someone who is
adversarial.(an opponent.)

does that mean that a dim witted person is opposing
me?oh me gosh.

in advance, happy new year!

its hard to think of random things to muse over
in my blog.
so i shall thus create an occasional section called:
"I don't understand why..."

Firstly.
I don't understand why...

People get so petty when playing games.
Take for instance, MapleStory.
Yes, it is irritating when people
raid or loot your map, and it is understandable
to get mad when that happens.
But to actually go to the extent of tracking
down their guild/friends to scold them
is retarded.Its like some old fashioned show
where some crazed fool seeks revenge.
And that crazed fool is greedy as well.
Kill the culprit. not enough.
The fool works his way down the whole
family tree and even to extended relatives.
Then he dies in the final showdown
between the last surviving family
member and himself.

Stupid?
Yes, very much so.

And even worst are those people
who threaten to hunt you down
in Singapore.
Oh puh-lease.
People take on online personas which
may not be a true reflection of their true self.
so kill off the character if you want,
but no the controller.
In the first place, games are supposed
to relieve stress, not create stress.

play until so cham,
don't play la.

I don't understand why...

some people are so fickle-minded.
one day they will be like:
You're my BEST friend.
And the next day the person will
announce someone else to be a new best friend.

weird isn't it?
never ever trust such people.
they are just trying to get a safe platform to
step on from both parties so that if one
person abandons him/her, he/she'll still have the other.

yup.
thats it.
till next time,
clara.

2006-12-30T01:22:00.000+08:00

Today..
Cell group appreciation day!!
All the way at Chinatown,
20 mins away by train.
I was in the drama team,
we had such a blast man!

Somewhere near here-

You can see the reflection of the clouds on the
G.E building!
Finally..no rain today!
Someone once told me that if you use your
cell phone near your respective host
(eg: singtel/starhub),
your signal will be very good.
is it true..?

Gosh i'm tired.

No picture of myself for eons..so here ya go!!
I had some fun on Nero photo thingy..
made myself glow!!
wow..that's an effect that even SK 2
cannot achieve!!
*beams*literally.

Gdnight.
or rather gd morning.
whatever.

Clara.

ps: some guy told his friend that i was a celebrity.
that's not too bad~

2006-12-27T19:53:00.000+08:00

v. sian leh.
friendster doesn't accept 10 mgp,
ultra fine photos.
i'll maybe have to cut them a bit.

anyways...
watch these 2 videos!!

1) The song is nice, and the girl (Vivian Hsu)
is damn pretty !! Even prettier than dawnyang.
plus au naturale.lol.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MTY2gA9izY0

2) The song is super nice, and.. *cough* fleshparade*cough*

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZjJkA36xdTg

there you go!
and to combat extreme boredom,
go to youtube and type "will it blend"
in search.
the blender is awesome!!
(recommended by my fren)
if only diamond wasn't that hard..
we'll have diamond dust!!

i think its sad that innocent people
sometimes have to suffer from other people.
like when they are being dumb, or just thick-skinned.
their actions affect us.
no means no.
and to set this naivety record straight,
just because a person talks to you
doesn't mean that:
1) The person likes you.
2) The person is a potential partner.
No.
There exists:
1) Polite conversation.
2) Polite laughter.
3) Polite attention.
4) Polite "dates".

this state of mind must be cured.

i know rejection is a painful thing..
but you just have to deal with it and MOVE ON.
build a bridge and GET OVER IT,
as i always say.
i don't believe that only one person in
the world is suitable for you.
that only 1 person deserves your
mercilessly endlessly annoying attention.
got forest you choose one tree.
then when the tree can't be cut down..
you sit there and wait for the trunk to rot,
so it'll be softer.
and no, time will not make a difference
in this case.
and if you can't accept this simple fact,
N-O no, not interested..,
then you'll just have to die lonely.
and gaze at the captivating heavens by your
lonesome self.
no one to share joy with.
why?
cos you firmly believe that only 1 person is right for you.
yeah right.
4 billion people in the world.
one you.

its your stubborn mindset.
not fate or whatevernot.
and NO,
perseverence will piss people off,
not touch their hearts.

to anyone:
if u read this entry and feel convicted.
maybe its time for a reality check.

Lily Allen
Shame for you

I've been thinking that you've crossed the line
If you disagree well that will be just fine
Cos you waste my time and waste my money
And your not too cool and your not so funny!
Spreading your seed all over the town
Getting too greedy and messing around:
Oh my gosh you must be joking me
If you think that you'll be poking me

Don't take me on no, no
Don't take me on no, no
Don't take me ooon
Shattered the lie but you think
I don't already know
Don't try to deny
cos my fuse is ready to blow
Its your turn to learn
I think that you know where to go
It's a shame, shame, shame for you

Please don't come around and knock on my door
Cos I don't want to have to pick you up of the floor
When you ask if we can still be lovers
I'll have to introduce my brothers
Think that they could teach you a lesson or two
By the time they've finished you'll be black and blue
You'll be crying like a baby
A sea of tears they'll call the navy in

Don't take me on no, no
Don't take me on no, no
Don't take me ooon
Shattered the lie but you think
I don't already know
Don't try to deny cos my fuse is ready to blow
It's your turn to learn
I think that you know where to go
It's a shame shame shame for you

Don't take me on no, no
Don't take me on no, no
Don't take me ooon
Shattered the lie but you think
I don't already know
Don't try to deny cos my fuse is ready to blow
It's your turn to learn
but I think that you know where to go

Ciao!

Your relationship guru,
Clara.

haha.

haha.

2006-12-26T17:23:00.000+08:00

Warning: Mindless photolog.
Macro-mode madness indeed.
The beauty of macro-mode.

Firstly, the wonderful x'mas eve
dinner!!
My mum is a great cook.
Too bad i didn't seem to inherit that..
i'm deathly afraid of fires,
and i don't want to learn how to cook
anything except instant noodles.
So there.
When i say that people are like..
"But you're a girl yadda yadda."
like..so??
why must the female be the cook??
its not like i'll have any kids to cook for
anyway.
grr.

Darling rainbow hates the cold ;)
She's coming 2 yrs old..

White orchids!!

At first i liked the rain, but now i don't.

The endless rain has left my window ledge
ultra dirty.
And i don't feel like cleaning it.

Long overdue.
Presenting my neighbour's rabbit..
Lionhead..the smaller type i think.
whatever it is..its the cutest i've ever seen!

Celebrated X'mas the ol' traditional way..
family gathering at my cousin's place!!

Which means photo opportunities!!

Macro-ed the hook,
unfocused the rest.

Merry X'mas '06 people!!

flash on.
looks like snow!

Bye!!

Clara.

p.s:
you sms me about something, FINE.
no problem.really.honestly.
but then when the topic is closed,
i very clearly keep my answers short.
but you dig out some lame question to force
the conversation to go on.
we have NO similarities, ok.
the end.
don't try to forge out similarities.
that's just so low.
and don't take my individual likes/hates
and make them yours.
that's even worst.

2006-12-24T21:35:00.000+08:00

today..i was santarina!!
my assigned location was in hall 6,
the carnival!!
i was happy with that location because
the constant flow of kids makes giving
out sweets a whole lot easier!

honestly, is there such a thing as santarina??
don't think so..maybe santa's female helper.
anyways, the dress was SUPER sexy.
man i was kinda embarrassed!
and the hat was too big..
kept dropping off.

i paired up with another guy..
don't know who.
=x.
can't remember his name too =XX.
even though i was a bit sian
at first cos i only slept 6 hours,
the kids and the people made me
feel that there was nowhere
else i would rather be,
no other way that i would spend my day.
the past few days i didn't have any xmas
cheer at all.. but now i must say
i'm looking forward to tomorrow!!
i smiled so muched today..
my mouth hurts.
i'm not a person who smiles a lot..
laughs a lot but other than that i
look rather unapproachable.
today i must have looked super
approachable..
cos a guy asked me for my no.
-_-

the kids were cute..
there was once when a santa
approached a little girl's back..
and when she turned around she got
the shock of her life..
haven't seen santa much i suppose!
she jumped three steps back.
the look of terror on her face
was so cute..
her parents were laughing!
turns out she thought that the
fake santa was a real old man..
and freaked out.

the only pissifying( ok i made that word up )
moment was when i wished an old man
merry xmas.
he was pushing a cart, so i thought
that he could do with some xmas
cheer in his life.
arrgh.
he smiled.
SO widely.
i thought: wah so effective.
but something about his smile was weird.
made me think something was awry.
how true.
turns out it was a LECHEROUS smile.
and every few steps he turned around to wink at me.
DAYM.

after duty, it was pouring.
took the mrt and bus home.
how lucky.
i fell asleep on the bus..
and woke up at my stop.
whew!!
being santarina is tiring man!

my mum, as usual,
cooked great xmas meal for us.
all sorts of fresh seafood smothered
in cream sauce.
nice...!

this year the lighting at my estate has improved greatly..
around the pool palm trees are draped with
golden lights.
truly ethereal at night..
always the last thing i gaze at before turning in..
through windows painted with raindrops.
and at the entrance( where my main living room's
window is facing)
the trees are draped with multi-coloured lights..
and patterns are made using these lights
in the bushes.
boy oh boy.
they glimmer like mystical magic berries.
the lights are not those cheap multi-coloured
ones which look fake.
these ones have very strong and unique colours.
breathtaking.

gotta run.
the highly acclaimed movie
"Love Actually".
my first movie in 6 months.

bye,
clara.

p.s: i don't understand why msn conversation windows
cannot be closed, cheryl.

2006-12-23T22:00:00.000+08:00

whoa.
i haven't been sleeping well these days.
i'll go to bed at 1+ am,
then walk around the dark house till 3 am
because of..insomnia??

zz.

last night i had a horrible dream.
basically, it summed up ALL the problems
in my life.
i dreamt about a sick relative,
an annoying stalker,
(which turned psycho in my dream.
uber freaky!!),
a reserved sweater that i haven't picked up,
my cousin's upcoming ns,
no consent for the biggest goal in my life,
and the inability to purchase xmas presents.
so, basically, i was shopping around for presents
when all the other stuff came in.

it was the worst shopping trip of my life.

my phone bill is running high.
so i can only message church people
and my GIRLfriends.
sorry.
i know this is frustrating, but
my dad pays my bills for me.
and i will not take advantage of that.
anything, TAG.
i repeat, TAG.
i check my blog everyday anyway.
sometimes i don't switch on my phone
for the whole day.
when that happens,
call my house.
if you have my number, of course.
if not, tag.
and sometimes smses get
irrelevant if you read them late anyway.

i hate people who can't take no for an answer.
especially when it is like the 3 rd time.

today i went for chc's xmas service.
it was awesome!
h.h, m.y..wanna go tell me!!
i'll be more than happy..
once h.h is no longer grounded..
mon there's service too.

tomorrow i'm gonna be santarina(the female santa)
at church tomorrow.
so yeah.
cannot laugh!!
i think it'll be fun though.

i'm one step closer!!!!

don't know why this com
suddenly can't detect my camera =(
its annoying.
i bet you all have forgotten what i look
like by now.no pics.

ooh.
i wanna get another CD.
Lily Allen.
she's just so incredibly talented!
downloading songs are a big nono
these days.

gonna watch tv now..bye!

clara.

so close now.

2006-12-22T00:30:00.000+08:00

Dreams, Dreams
Of when we had just started things
Dreams of me and you
It seems, It seems
That I can't shake those memories
I wonder if you feel the same way too??

Lily Allen-Littlest Things

2006-12-21T00:09:00.000+08:00

first coloured entry in ages.
i absolutely refuse to change to the new
version of blogger.
lazy lazy.

today,
went to kbox with h.h, m.y, f.
i've never gone to that place with
friends before.
so suaku.
anyways it was super fun.
(and super ex!)
i've got a lot of savings this month..
didn't go out much.
i wanna go out again soon ppl!!

so, today as h.h,f and i were
walking across the overhead bridge
leading to suntec i was casually
mentioning to them that i haven't
seen any temasekians since
the start of the hols..
then i saw 3 groups of them.
it was very funny.
cos h.h and f were like screaming
with laughter and i was being
all o.0..
they were saying hellos to ppl
that they didn't even know that well..
haha!

and then...
my mood went skyrocketing down
when ____________________.
kjfdhvlkdjfke.
OH.
please.
if anyone has a heart, pls
don't let it be true..
and h.h.. in these times..
brothers don't go out with their sisters
that often...
so..........
SIGH.
wellwell.
but seriously, this time,
i cannot just let it pass me by.
enough of missed opportunities already
in my life!!
wo shou gou le.

but how how how??
sorry h.h but i lack the guts to do
whatever you want me to do..
ah...
thanks for calling man..
you made me feel better
and..you made me laugh by ______.
hahaha.
no surprise, really...
just entertaining!!

OH.
I just read something that made
me feel like crap.
and no,
this time no one can make me
feel better.

enough detective work.
its depressing.

what xmas?!

what she got that i don't have?

another thing.
how can you dislike a person
because someone else likes that person??
that person didn't ask that someone to like
him/her.
unless u like that person too?
eww no.
or maybe, you're just damn shallow.

2006-12-19T00:44:00.000+08:00

v. long nvr blog i know..
i missed girls out loud!!
i went out with my parents
and sis.
everything was planned.
we would finish dinner at 9 30pm,
and reach home by ten so that
i won't miss my show.
and we were done by 9 30pm!!
yay!
but...
while driving through the carpark..
OUR TYRE GOT PUNCTURED!!

suay or not??
so yeah, by the time my dad
fixed everything up
and drove home,
the show was over..
i missed ep. 1 n 2 too..
watched it on youtube.
pls post up ep. 3!!

last night i went to see
the xmas lights with some
awesome company!!
but..it rained -_-.
funny thing was, there
was a mini stubborn fire at
the corner of the Tangs building..
what a big fuss it caused...
fire engines, ambulances,
police cars.
not cos the fire was of any danger but
cos of the crowd there...

congrats m.y for getting
into such a mjc!!
you worked hard man...
wonder why noone
except h.h never really thought about this:
studying in a lousy school
so that you can do v. well
for prelims and get into
your ideal institute...
then when the Os are out
you can minus points somemore..

i've received soooo
much criticism for not going
for the 3 months thing.
i was eligible for some jcs..
but here's my stand:
i'll rather study in a good poly
than a bad jc.

i haven't watched a movie for 1/2 year now!!
wanna watch texas chainsaw massacre.
but its R21.
and its prob. very gruesome too.

my sis was telling me about
a young boy who could play pool
better than his dad who
trained him.
and that immediately made me
think of a very cliche and overused
plot for chinese movies..
for eg:
a guy was trained to be an assassin
by his father. and when he grows up,
he sees that his father's ways are evil
and thus rebels against his father,
killing him in a final fiery battle.

i'm irritated at my camera.
it takes up batteries at an alarming
rate. and the batteries that i use
cost $3 for 2.
so if i use my cam 100 times..
$300!!

i'm gonna train my panda now,
bye!!

clara.

2006-12-13T20:10:00.000+08:00

my new cam arrived yesterday!

anyways, there was a gathering
with my tuition pals today.
the thing is, i forgot, and promised
my mum that i would go out with her.
as i was stepping out, i switched on my phone..
and got serveral smses.
uh-oh..
glanced over at my mum, and decided
to give the gathering a miss.
didn't want to dampen her spirits.
gosh, i'm soooooo sorry man!!

i hate it when i cross-promise..

undeniably, though, it was a
gorgeous day..

(auto, sun shining right at cam.)

hopped on the NEL,
and it was a straightforward
ride to harbourfront.
and finally... i get to visit Vivo city.
i liked the rooftop viewpoints.

(auto)

i must be so back dated.
people that i know are like vivo this
vivo that...
and i'm like o.o???
at last i get to actually go there.

had lunch at Asian Kitchen.
not bad, i have to say.
6 hours later and i'm still super full.

(auto, E: negative)

looks like there's bacteria.

i walked around for 2 hours.
there was basically nothing much
on the top floors.
(my opinion)
the pet safari was half-renovated.
went in to take a look at the adorable puppies.
someday, i'll get one of my own!!

descended to the first floor.
there was definitely much more
stuff there!
plus xmas sales too!!
only at the last 1/2 hr
i found stuff to buy.
bought:
a super cute skull headband.
velvet Mango hoodie.
Guess bag.
matching Guess wallet.
a plastic dish for Rainbow to bathe in,
from the ever random Daiso $2 shop.

i really wanted a skirt from Topshop.
But it was ridiculously priced.
-_-

headed home after that.
the train was jam packed.
rush hour!

i get super annoyed when
in such tight spaces, people
actually blast music from their phone.
please invest in a good pair of headphones.
PLS.

maybe these ppl are just trying
to show off their flashy gadgets.
i'll always remember a funny
incident that i heard about on radio.
an ah beng was trying to haolian
about his new phone.
he was apparantly talking on the phone.
saying: Ah. Good. Clear right?
Very exp. you know. yadda yadda...
when suddenly..his phone rang.
he alighted on the next stop.
hahaha.

k.
i know my entries have been bland
for super long.
so.. here you go.

you know, people are kiasu.
all of us.
its the extent of kiasu-ism that matters.

many a time have i heard this ridiculous
claim:
leave products on longer than stated,
get better results!!

BULL.
Prak.

don't get confused.
here's an illustration.
face masks.
those paper like face-shaped things
that come soaked with, say,
whitening solution.
or moisturising solution.
or radiance solution.
whatever.
you take them out from a sealed
pack, and place it on your face.
and wait.
usually, its for 15 mins.
my blood pressure shoots up when
people say:
Hey... leave it on for 1/2 hour.
the results will be better.

gosh.
where is your common sense??
when products are effective,
more people will buy them,
and the company will thus earn more income.
so why, why, WHY,
would a company instruct you to put the face mask
on for 15 mins when it can actually last
for 1/2 hour??
wouldn't it be courting its own doom??
why, WHY would they want to make
their products less effective than they are??
i read from a magazine that the stated
time is how long the product can last.
after that duration, the product is useless.
so you just continue relaxing.
but in no way will it "be more effective."
in fact, i suspect that the product only lasts for like 12 mins.
the extra 3 mins is just to make sure
that all of the product in used up.

yup.
that's all i have to say.
the finale of proj. runway
is starting now on chnl 16!!
i LOVE that show.

Toodling with my cam,
when i got some nice shots.

(auto.don't know what i did but i got a blurry
effect)

and...the masterpiece!!

(auto.macro mode. flash on to properly
expose subject.)

p.s:
www.xiaxue.blogspot.com
got a NOSE JOB!!
How cool is that??
and it was sponsored.
actually, she mentioned
that this plastic surgeon is the best,
but that's not true.
she HAD to say that cos
its free.
the bestest=Dr Woffles Wu.
truly.
i better start saving up man.
doesn't look like i'm gonna get
a sponsor.
yes, yes, bad, fake,...lalalala....
i've made up my mind.
too late.
when will www.dawnyang.com
admit it man....
along with all the other
nips and tucks.
honesty is the best policy!!

2006-12-11T22:56:00.000+08:00

can't see ur tags from this com, sry.
my bro's com has been revamped,
to a super ex and pro gaming system.

today was my first day of work..
my mind is just spinning with all
the weird new terms like garnet,
moonstone, agate, rose quartz...

the worst part was stock taking.
there were 100++++ items,
each with an individual serial no.
i had to search for each one..
grr.
but overall i had fun..
my boss is so nice.
she treated me to dinner
and asked her mum to drop me somewhere
near my home.
that's 1 hr of tavelling time saved.

the next time i'll be working is on the 21st, 2-10.
cos there are many other helpers during
this month of sch hols.
i have another job!!
another guy from my prev. church
popped by to say hi to my boss.
he needs promoters..
if interested ask me for his no.
he's rather nice.
promoting:
some radio rabbit.
i was like O.O

kk gtg bye!!

2006-12-08T22:43:00.000+08:00

my mum is so funny.
she told me to watch a documentry
on plastic surgery,
maybe to scare myself.
it was gruesome,
but i wasn't scared!
there isn't a lot of blood.
honestly.
still, not for the faint-hearted.

i think i have a common
face or something.
these are the faces that people
have linked me to.
-paris hilton. (omg!! nooo she looks like a tranny)
-kim tae hee ( yessss )
-belinda lee ( ???? )
-fiona xie ( gawd i hate her. talentless, act cute. )
-dawn yang ( YES!! )
-kim sam soon's leading actress. ( i don't know what she looks like )

woah.

i really hope to look like myself.
hehe.

i'm getting pre-job jitters.
and i just realised that
i'll miss Girls Out Loud again.
ahh i wanna watch!!
Chnl 5, 10pm monday.
super funny, trust me.
starring xiaxue and some other girl.

i can't wait for the film version of
Harry Potter and the Order of The Phoenix.
The book got my brain in knots..
maybe the movie will explain things better.
Mid July.

ok!!
announcement!!

COME TO CHURCH WITH ME!!!

City Harvest Church will be having a massive
X mas event over serveral days during
the X mas period.
There will even be a carnival with like
bumper cars and stuff.
i promise you that the drama will be gr8!!
prolly the best in s'pore!!

it doesn't matter who you are,
stranger or anything.
( yes i'm that desperate )
if you wanna go,
drop a tag..
i'll contact you.
though if you're a stranger that'll be hard.

TYVM!!
thank you very much.

God bless!

Clara.

2006-12-07T18:27:00.000+08:00

today i went to ikea
with my parents.
its super huge,
and the queue at the eatery is
super long. -_-

ppl always go to ikea
to 'take a look'
but end up buying loads
of stuff.
i bought the famous
green snake.
couldn't help it,
its very cute!
oh and i named it..
arrgh.
you'll laugh.
i named it
Alfred Geoffrey Tan.
(i know ur eyes are going o.0)
i love to name my stuff
horribly.
it just cracks me up.

if the music code worked,
you'll be hearing
Three Days Grace.
Pain.
Love this one.

i've been so bored these days,
i'm helping my bro play
maplestory.
level 90!!
and we started this year.
amazing.
i think the ninja girls are violent.

last night i had a HORRID dream.
honestly.
i woke up crying.
i dreamt that me and some guy
who was my bf, strangely,
was kidnapped by some cult.
and that cult sure had a long
history of gory murders.
just as we were captured,
i woke up.
gosh.
i hate it when that happens.
i'll be wondering what happens next all day.

i remember reading in the newspaper,
some shoe ad, that we walk
one hundred thousand km ++
in our life.
finally, one of my impossible questions
have been answered. hurray!

i also remember reading that a man
won a ticket to outer space.
the space shuttle launches next year.
and the ticket was worth
$100 000.
wow.
Q for you:
Would you want to go into..
outer space??

I would, honestly.
Don't care if i die up there.
I've never been afraid of death anyway.
Just think:
You'll get to see beyond this world.
And even if you die, you would
have achieved what other ppl didn't in
their whole lifetime.
you may be going:
siao.
but tonight look up at the sky
and think.really hard.
maybe the sky will enchant you.
just maybe.

random post, i know..
i want to have a photolog again!
But i'll wait for my cam.
sheesh.takes forever.

bye!
clara.

take the world by storm.

2006-12-06T23:14:00.000+08:00

whenever i log on to msn many ppl
are like : wow i hardly ever see you!!
i feel like some animal bordering
on extinction.haha!!

k, today ppl came over
to mount the new tv on the wall.
i must say it looks very nice.
i'll take a pic of it.
when my cam arrives.
its out of stock, so you'll
have to wait 2-3 wks. =(
i'm sick of blur pics!

the mind is willing but the flesh is weak.
how true.
i rmb. that for the the Os i pictured
myself preparing like 1/2 yr in
advance, mugging my guts out.
that didn't happen.
and i'll be like:
sleep 3 hrs each night, no prob.
uh-uh.
we always imagine ourselves
to be so capable.
like when my mum goes to
the supermarket i keep bugging
her to get a trolley, cos
1) I like pushing them =X
2) I know she will need them.
And she's always like:
No need!! I'll only buy a few things.
But at the end of the day
the trolley becomes extremely useful.
Over-estimation of oneself.

the saying:
"we're only human"
makes a lot of sense, don't it?

my real reason for blogging today:
I've found a job!!
Given up on giordano.
Don't think they'll want me,
an experience-less person.
So suay, come to think about it.
They just had to put me in a group
that was all experienced.
ok.
You see, my mum's friend owns 2
pushcarts at ________.
I'll only give the location
to certain ppl, cos
1) god knows who reads my blog.
2) shy la. cannot meh?
3) i link my friendster to my blog.
cough*despos*cough

And her name just surfaced in my mind
yesterday, so I called her today.
And yup, I start work on mon.
Pay is $5 an hr, plus 1% commision.
not a lot, but it'll have to do.
Plus if sales are good, my pay could
match up to boutiques.
But ________ is not super crowded.
Branded goods galore over there.
I'll honestly prefer working here
than at those boutiques.
1) Attire isn't an issue.
2) I don't have to clean up the store
after shopping hours.
3) Working hours won't affect
my church and cell group.

My parents keep telling me there's
no need to work.
They're afraid that i'll suffer man!!
When i walk past a place asking for
ppl to work i'll be like:
Not bad, should i give it a try?
And my parents will be like:
Crazy ar!! Do you know how hard it is, yaddayadda.
-_-
That's why i had some difficulty
in looking for a job.
So my job is just to pass time.

Its good to work for this lady anyway.
She's super kind.
Thank God for this job!!
Whew.

Went to plaza sing. just now
with my parents.
it reminded me that i haven't
been to a cinema for many months.
oh, and i saw some very...outrageous
shirts at carrefour.
like:
"This shirt looks better wet",
"Guys are good accessories",
"This shirt would look good on your floor."
I can't wear those.
I wouldn't be able to take a step
out of the door.

Went into a guess boutique.
their stuff is not ex, you know.
seriously.
bag are 100++.
compare it to LV and Gucci's
1k +++++++.
i wouldn't carry too branded stuff
when i'm young.
it just doesn't make sense cos ppl
would think its a fake anyway.
agree?
save all those stuff for later on.

Am gonna email SPCA,
hope they'll take in volunteers.

Tata!
Clara.

p.s:don't msg me asking what is _________!!
Cannot stalk cannot stalk!!
i'll tell you if i want to, period.
my phone bill's raging high,
i can only msg my girlfriends
and church ppl sry!
anything, tag.
my motto.

2006-12-04T16:12:00.000+08:00

Gosh lookie how bored i am.
2 posts in a day.
anyways does any1 know
how to sew??

i have been harping on and on to my friends
about buying big shirts,
cutting them up and making a dress
out of it.

so..i found a pic.
get the idea now??
i think its super cool.
oh and i want a tare panda one!!
with lace trimming on the bottom.

tada.

here's my wacky wishlist for xmas:
1)Snow globe.(with tinsel inside not styrofoam.
styrofoam settles too easily.)
2)Glow-in-the-dark jigsaw puzzle.
Of horses or constellations or stars.
3)Water cushion.

Clara.
xoxoxo

i can't see your star
though i patiently waited, bedside,
for the death of today.
i can't see your star,
the mechanical lights of Lisbon frightened it away...
and i'm alone now.

2006-12-04T14:44:00.000+08:00

i always feel bad when i'm away and ppl
talk to me on msn then when i finally
come back they are already offline.
=(

sorry if that has happened to ya b4 ok?
even though i may appear online on msn
i'm usually away.
not as in busy, but literally
away from the com.

oh k......

you know, my plan has backfired on me!
zohmygod!

i was supposed to rest in nov,
and be working by december.
but, lookie...
its the 4th of december and
i'm still unemployed!!
(imagine facing such a prob
at a young age,lol)
but i honestly think the govt.
is right: jobs are always available but ppl
are just too selective.

gd luck to m.y who's going for an interview!

btw i can't visit my blog on this com,
a cream coloured blank screen
is all i'll see, so if you tag, i'll reply
to it asap..when the other com
is available!!
i hope my prev. post did not
evoke too many feelings of misery yea? ;)

no depression, its the holiday season!

oh, maybe you should take some
time to visit this website.
it might arouse your interest
in photography.
which i have been interested in
since i was a child.
but it was one of those interests
that quickly died off,
cos its an expensive hobby.

http://www.macdevcenter.com/pub/a/mac/2002/10/22/digi_photo_tips.html

i think the running water one is pretty cool.

k, guys, i've nothing left to say...
except bye!

Clara.

p.s:
check out my latest friendster
testimonial.
my pri. sch mate accused me of
going under the knife, lol.
o.0

2006-12-02T23:37:00.000+08:00

sometimes when i love a person
or an animal too much,
i will wish that he/it never came into my life.
because then i wouldn't have to
experience the pain of their loss.
selfish, i know.

all things will come to pass.
including life.

there is a website..
that i chanced upon many yrs back,
but then i forgot abt it.
somehow, today i recalled it,
and visited it once again.

www.rainbowbridge.com

its more for the loss of a pet,
but i think its really touching.
as in, i cry when i read the stuff
that i see.
(ya, awww.)
basically, people pay tribute
to their lost pets there
and tell the stories of their furrypals.
and...i saw this.
how true, and applicable.

get yr tissue ready!

I hereby quote:
""How Long Will The Pain Last? How long will the pain last?"
a broken hearted mourner asked me.
"All the rest of your Life."
I have to answer truthfully.
We never quite forget.
No matter how many years pass,
we remember.
The loss of a loved one is like a major operation.
Part of us is removed,
and we have a scar for the rest of our lives.
As years go by, we manage.
There are things to do,
people to care for,
tasks that call for full attention.
But the pain is still there,
not far below the surface.
We see a face that looks familiar,
hear a voice that echoes,
see a photograph in someone's album,
see a landscape that once we saw together,
and it seems as though a knife were in the wound again.
But not so painfully.
And mixed with joy, too.
Because remembering a happy time is not all sorrow,
it brings back happiness with it.
How long will the pain last?
All the rest of your life.
But the thing to remember is that
not only the pain will last,
but the blessed memories as well.
Tears are proof of life.
The more love, the more tears.
If this be true, then how could we
ever ask that the pain cease altogether.
For then the memory of love would go with it.
The pain of grief is the price we pay for love.
By Ginny Brancato (Fificat) ."

thats one thing i take comfort in.
the memories.

bless her soul.
her website is awesome, and i love
that she's helping people get over their grief.
only on such a site can one truly
find a person that understands.
when i grieved for my lost pets ( 2 of them )
long ago, people scorned my actions,
and i felt so misunderstood.
they called me "over-sentimental."
but..why??
for the love that an animal gives
is unconditional.truly.
if you don't feed a person and abuse him,
he will hate you.
but animals don't hate, they just don't
understand why you are neglecting them.

when you're free, do read
some of the stories that people post.
its really moving.

cherish your loved ones.
there's no time like the present.

Cheers,
Clara.

2006-12-01T00:08:00.000+08:00

Oh.
its 12 09 am now and i have to wake
up early tmr cos some ppl are
coming to service the aircons.
all 5 of them machines i think.
anyhow, i have a lot to type.
and very little time.
so screw caps lock and proper english.

i went for a job interview at
the head office of g_ior_da_no.
why the underscores in between,
you might wonder.
cos i have some berating to do.
don't wanna get sued or somethg.
i'm telling you, the location
of the damned place is A M A Z I N G.
it was somewhere near diamond indus.
like where on earth is that??
my mum sent me there and we spent
gdness knows hw long looking for that place.
its along paya lebar rd.
no. 110 i think.
incredible.
but the location made me quite happy.
i thought:
surely those kids can't find their way there.
wrong.
it was jam packed, such that
group interviews had to be carried out.
so...
shoot.
of all things, i had to be the only one
without working exp.
in that interview grp of about 6.
the only gd point abt me was that
i could speak properly.
the others were mumbling away.
sigh, i'll only know the results by nxt week
or so, whether i'm selected or not.

btw, i went to peek at rainbow
while she was snoozing..
and she growled at me.
really. -_-"
not her fault, tho.
i taught her how to growl.
its super cute.
you repeat a sound many times to her,
and if she finds it worth learning,
you hear her practising when she's alone.
then someday she'll surprise you with it.

today was the frst day that i went out
with my frens since the end of the Os.
about time man!!
we went ice skating.
was awesome.
h.h, m.y, flo.
and me.
it wasn't very fun...
until the ppl decided to resurface
the ice.
smoother=more slippery=faster=more fun= ;)
its really hard to skate on rough ice
cos the tip of yr skates hooks onto some
nook or cranny or the ice, making you trip.
i didn't fall =)
i never do, unless some1 drags me down.haha.
so..at the last part,
with the smooth ice and all,
i pulled the 3 of them.
v. heavy!!
felt like the poor buffalo in my geog. tb.
but we went fast and that's all that matters.
my raw ankles and 3 blisters in a row
on my left foot,
one of which has broken (yikes!) matters too tho.
painful but worth it.

lets do it again ppl!

now i'm waiting for.. a gd movie.
i hardly ever watch movies, so the
ones that i do watch better be gd.
reason why i don't watch movies
(in cinemas) is cos
1) I hate popcorn. The smell makes
me nauseous.(becos of an overdosage once.yucks!)
2) Time just flies.2 hrs just go by.

i simply cannot do impulse buying.
cos i'll feel guilty.
i usually do shopping with mum
cos she pays for it all ;)
actually, its more becos i value
my mum's opinion.
she knows me best, duh.
i grew up with her.
my dad gets super bored during shopping.
he will then wander off,
and we'll lose contact with him.
then we'll have to call him, etc.
very tiring.
my sis...
will rush into every shop,
relevant or not.
then she'll spend 20 mins in there,
and come out empty handed.
that just pisses me off to no end!

on the way home,
something irritated me!!
arrgh!!
you know when you're waiting for the bus,
its a long lane surrounded
by metal bars right??
yea.
i always queue.
and today, i was first in queue.
and i was reading.there were some ppl
queuing bhind me.
there are always some ppl
who linger around the area
to wait for the bus.
they refuse to queue.
well, that's fine.
but this indian woman that was lingering
nearby just cut my queue.
she just walked in front of me
and sat on the railings.
like wtf??
i thought that maybe, just maybe,
she would give way to me
or somethg when the bus arrives.
but NO.
she just barged into the bus.
you see, its not about being first.
that doesn't matter.
but its abt basic courtesy man!

you know what?
why don't we do away with queues
since no one respects them.
we'll all hover around the area,
and when the bus arrives,
we'll rush like mad dogs.
cool?

i think not.

c'mon ppl!!
mind yr manners!!

makes me so frustrated that
i could tear all my hair out.

night.

p.s:
now i know why i cannot watch
football without falling asleep.
cos its a "process" game,
but i'm more of a "results" person.

am i so insignificant?

2006-11-26T23:13:00.001+08:00

Eh...
Its my 272th post.
And still going strong.
I think that if I didn't have a blog my mind would
explode.Or my diary would have to be changed
every few weeks.

So..
I have a point to make.And prove.
Humans are made to
SHUT UP and LISTEN.
Its a fact.
Surely you have heard of this:
Lips are made to shut but not ears.
hurhur.
Oh, and have you noticed that:
You can't talk and breathe at the same time?
You can try it now.
That's why people have to STOP and catch
a breath after a long sentence.
The keyword is STOP.
So, we can't keep talking forever.
We'll have to stop at some point in time.
To listen.
We feel tired after talking non-stop.
Our throat hurts.
But do we feel tired after listening to someone?
No.
Mentally we may be worn out
but physically, we're not.
Do your ears hurt from listening?
Nope.
Unless you're listening to the
mosquito-like stealth ringtone.

I'm the sort of person who loves
to listen, rather than talk.
(Unless I'm with people that I'm
totally comfortable with.Then, I'll BLAB.)
When listening to people you
don't really know,
one may pick up
a slight tinge of bitterness,
or even regret.
The tone, the words,
they weigh a tonne.

So: Talk less, listen more.

I wonder:
You know how the govt. tries
to discourage people from
smoking from placing freaky
pictures on cigarette boxes?
Ya.
Do you think that people subconsciously
choose the less gruesome pics while
making their purchase?
The more gruesome ones are
usually left on the shelf.

I will be looking for a job next week.
I'm kind of looking forward to the
experience.
A strange environment with no one to lean on.
Moi isn't scared.

bye,
clara.

p.s:
I'm saving up for a kick-ass digicam.
If possible, 10 MGP.
But, oh well, 8 MGP is not bad too.
And this is the cam I had in mind...
Canon Digital IXUS 900 Ti..
Untill I saw the price.
Around $750.
-_-
I'm only willing to spend < $600.
any....recomendations?
Powershot A630 seems like a good buy.
I prefer Canon.
I know cybershot is nice,
but 7 MGP...le sigh.

2006-11-25T00:03:00.000+08:00

Prom..is over.
It was all fine, except the finale.
Only one of my friends will know what
I'm talking about.

Eh...
I didn't take any pics.
They're all in my friends'
cams. So I'll just upload
the few photos that I took.
As for the group photos..
I'll just wait for someone to upload them
or include them in a blog entry??
*hint =)

So..some pics..
related to prom.

My lovely french manicure.
I've been typing in phobia
of chipping my nails.

Didn't have any bag.
Took my mum's Guess one.

I..did my own makeup.
Didn't do much..
concentrated on the eye only.
My eyes only look good in
silver,black,brown,grey eyeshadow.
So I used brown and silver.

from the neck down..
the bottom has 2 layers of frills.
you just can't see it.
;)

(ps: if you see some yellow dots
on the dress..ignore them.
there's something wrong with my com.
only the jewels are meant to be there.)

kay.face shot.

does anyone notice that my hair is BROWN?
-_-

Its my dad's bdae today!!
16 years ago, during his birthday
I was 10 days old.
Awww..

Clara.

2006-11-22T16:44:00.000+08:00

PROM'S TOMORROW!!!
and I really don't know what to do with my hair.
My mum helped me to colour it yesterday.
very subtle brown..nice.
I'm not looking for something loud.
I'm so proud of her...the colour is
so even!!
=)
But its a lot of hard work.
Gah. I should just go to a salon.

But noo...$10 at home,
$60 and above at a salon.
I have spent too much on prom night
already.
And its just one night, pooey.

Today was the first day that I had a good rest.
I slept at 1 am and woke up at 12nn.
Not bad at all.
I dreamt that Godzilla was chasing me.
Yes, I think these 'being chased' dreams
really do signify an unsolved prob.
But I woke up today to find my prob. solved!!
Whew!
In a really peculiar way too..

String back the pearls,
close the curtains.
The show has finally ended.

Ok,
let me make a checklist.
Dress, check.
Earrings, check.
Hair, Er..check.
Shoes, check.
Nails,check.
Underwear, check.

I'm all set!!
For prom night.
I hope one of my friends
bring along a digicam.
I don't like how my hp pictures turn out.
I'm gonna buy a cam when I get my paycheck!!
I haven't even started working yet.
Haven't even found a job yet.
Any recommendations??
Please say modelling.

This is going to be a self-centred post.
I have run out of revelations.
Imagine having revelations every single day.
I'll have to be locked up,
lest one day I wake up with the
revelation that I should conquer the whole world.
Dangerous!

Oh, and someone should teach me
how to photoshop.
After watching America's Next Top Model,
whoa!! Photoshop can indeed work wonders.

I went for a haircut yesterday.
Don't ask why, just felt like it.

I have run out of things to say.
This has to be the most boring post ever.
Goodbye.

Update:
I called Giordano, they have vacancies!!
$6 an hour, where else to find?

2006-11-20T22:20:00.000+08:00

Busybusy!!
Prom night's on the 23rd.
I've found a dress, shoes, done my hair
halfway, done my nails,
bought seamless underwear.
(don't laugh!! my dress is quite tight,
later can see underwear lines, very unglam!)
Muahaha.
And...eh..
I'm going to spend about 300 in total.
Counted already.
=(
That can buy half of the nice pink Gucci wallet.

Oh well..
Briefing in school early tmr morning.
8 30am.
I haven't been sleeping much anyway, no diff.
Been waking up at around 9,
then hitting the shops till evening..
then have dinner...watch TV..and then
the whole cycle begins again.
Actually its only been two days
of shopping but since i'm not a fan
of shopping it feels like forever.
I'll much rather cuddle up on the couch
with a good book.Better company
than the exorbitant price tags.

Hmm..
topic..topic..
Got it.

This revelation hit me a couple of days back.
Just didn't have the time to really work it out.
Here's the million dollar question:

Why are we so sad when people die??
(someone you love, duh)

I know its morbid and the festive season is just
around the corner yadda yadda.
But still!!
Must enlighten people who didn't
know, or never really thought about this.

My say:
Firstly, and obviously,
we grieve because when people
die, the memories haunt you.
All the both of you used to do together,
the relationship, the love, the happiness,
it all perishes together with that person.
The memories stay, but the possibility
of ever visiting your fav. spot together, spending time
together or even just talking is zero.
And that is really sad, esp. when you love that person.

Secondly,
You are used to having that person around.
whether that person is a phone call away,
or a room away, he was always in reach.
But now, out of reach.
Take for instance an old fugly ancient flower vase
that has been in your house for 10 years.
You've been dying to get rid of it.
And when you finally do,
it feels..hollow.
You may even miss it.
And if we'll miss some ugly piece of furniture,
of course we'll miss someone we love dearly,
a thousand-fold.

There are so many more reasons,
I could go on forever.
BUT this is the main reason.

No two people on earth are the same.

You may think..so??

Lets use an example:
A woman, sadly, has a miscarriage.
After sometime, she is blessed
with another child.
Although the other child makes her
happy, she'll always remember
and grieve for her lost child.
Why?
Because the two babies are different
kids, with different personalities and traits.
If the two babies were the same,
the new child could have easily replaced
the lost one, and the woman wouldn't
feel sad at all.

Another example:
Sometimes after the death of their pets,
people refuse to get another one, saying
that 'it won't be the same'.
How true.
Each animal is unique.
They behave differently, have quirky traits
and habits of their own, and thus a lost
pet can never really be 'replaced.'
All a new pet can do is to take
your mind off the deceased one.

If someone were to die,
but he can be replaced with
another exact replica of himself,
would you be sad??
The memories go on,
his life goes on.
But if the deceased was a unique
individual, like we all are,
of course people would
grief the loss.
Because each and every person
has a different character and personality
that others have come to love.
And when that person dies,
you know that he can never really truly
be replaced.
And thus, we are sad.

Get it??
That's why clones are not really
a good idea.

K, gotta zzz now!
Bye.

i want to be like you,
lie cold in the ground like you,
there's room inside for two,
and i'm not grieving you anymore.
i'm coming for you.

2006-11-16T20:17:00.000+08:00

The moment I've been waiting for:
The end of the Os!
But now that its over and done with,
its quite sad actually.
I'm suffering from
post-examination symdrome.
I keep feeling the urge to study.
-_-

I keep wondering about my results,
but what has been done has been
done, and I'm quite satisfied, I must say.

So...
after my last paper today,
I went to...
pluck my eyebrows.
Couldn't tahan them anymore.
I always abandon my basic grooming
because of studies. xP
badbad.

For some reason,
I feel like scattering smileys
everywhere.
0.0

So..here are the hightlights
of my Os.

Most scary moment:
When time was almost up for my
E maths P2 but I was still scribbling away.
And there were still questions at the
back that were undone.
I totally flipped..
but made it through..
with veryvery cold and clamy hands nonetheless.

Most tiring moments:
Has to be the last night crammings.
Studying till 1..
waking up a few hours after that.
It was very draining.
And also the 12 hour study marathons..
no life at all!

Most painful moments:
Cracking lips.
The air-conditioning is unbearably DRY.
There was a 3 day period where I had to have
lip gloss on every minute,
even when I was sleeping.
And whenever I cracked a smile, I cracked
my lips too =/
There was blood. Ahh!
Another very painful moment
occurred just before my
elec geog paper.
I was basically very unprepared for that paper.
And I walked into the hall
with my friends, the last few people.
I grabbed my ziplock bag.
And my stupid compass
poking out stabbed my vein below
my fingers. Oww..
There was lotsa blood.
Quite funny now, come to think of it.

Most fun moments:
EL P2.
EL oral.
E Maths

tada!
My take on the Os..
Gonna have dinner now,
bye!

Clara.

someone pls give me his number ahhh !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
;)

2006-11-10T18:38:00.000+08:00

I'm halfway through the Os..
The purpose of my whole life
in school. =)
Over with the fun subs this week,
onto the nightmarish ones next week.
Chem and A maths on the same day??
Er...Moe??
I PROTEST!!!
But ah well.
Sigh.

Now that some people have read my
entry, (yay!)
I can blog again.
If you haven't read it yet, please do.

Ok.
Actually I didn't have anything to blog about,
but something happened today that
gave me inspiration.

Funny post.
And a very sarcastic and
painfully polite one,
I must add,
so bear with me.
Imagine me with a forced smile
on my face the whole time I'm writing this.

Ok.
All set?

Today when I was standing with h.h
at the foyer before E maths P2,
which was rather fun in a challenging way,
two girls were standing about 2 metres
away from us.
They had just got off a cab at the roundabout.
Then one of the girls said
to her friend that I was thin.
To that comment, her friend eagerly said:
Ya.Like a stick!
I pretended not to hear.
Maybe I wasn't supposed to hear anyway.
And anyway, it doesn't bother
me when people say I'm thin.
Its not like I'm unhealthy.
And besides, thin is in now.
AND if people are putting their
lives at risk just to be thin,
then I'm glad I'm thin without trying.

Back to the story.
I continued studying.
And that girl said again:
Like a stick.Stick.Stick.
Getting louder and louder each time.
Er.
I pretended not to hear.
Why should I let other people's
actions affect my feelings?
Life's much too short for that.

What horrible, revolting girls.
Tsktsk.
Worse of all, one of them was
from my pri. school,
and I used to talk to her once
in a blue moon.
My dear, I'm so sad that you have grown up.
Not that growing up is bad,
but in your case, it is.
Why, you may ask.
Because your level of maturity
belongs in primary school.
In fact, it screams
mental retardation.
Didn't your mother tell you
not to insult people?
For obvious reasons which
you might not know, darling.
People have feelings.
Hey, wait..did you even know that?

The two girls were the typical
'Oh My God I'm A Girl.'
girls.
You know, the kind who
woke up one fine morning
and realised that they were girls.
And then they started loving
the colour pink, thinking that
they are princesses ( Oh please. )
and gossiping about other people.
If you ever asked these kind of girls
why they gossip, they would probably
smile cutsily and say:
We can't help it.Girls just like to gossip.
And then they would skip away,
singing nursery rhymes to themselves.

Haha.
Your mouths are made to close.
And I'm willing to bet
that that goes for guys too.
Stop trying to act like an exception,
like " Oops, I'm a girl! Its not my fault! "

Sure, girls like to gossip.
But the extent of it is what matters.
And sweethearts, you just went
overboard.
May I ask you what was the purpose for
you trying to make me hear that I am thin?
There is such a thing at mirrors, you know.
Yes, don't look at me like that!!
MIRRORS!
You know, the shiny, reflective things
that you can see yourself in??
Ah! You're holding a pink mirror
in your hand!
So I DO know that I am thin.
And to you girls, being thin is different,
because you two are huge.
There is absolutely nothing wrong
with being huge, trust me.
But laughing at me is totally reflective
of a chinese idiom.
Erm..."Cannot eat grape say grape sour."
Get it?
And oh, maybe you two just could not accept the
fact that I am different from you.
But we're supposed to embrace each others
differences, remember?
Social studies, dears.
If everything must be the same,
you girls should go live in
some pink land where photocopies
of yourself dwell.

Maybe, just maybe,
you two were in a bad mood
because you were almost late for
the examination.
Don't look at me like that.
I wasn't the cow that died in
the middle of the road in front of your
taxi. Nor was I the pin on
the ground that caused the taxi's tyre
to go "Pssstt..Boom! "
Or maybe, you guys were just late.
And understandably, you two would
be anxious.
One thing I've learnt:
The transition from anxiety
to relief is a very grudging one.
People refuse to go:
Wow, I made it!!
and smile.
They usually frown and say:
&$&%&*%*% Its all ____'s fault man!
and act like grouches.

You shouldn't have taken out your
crankiness on me.
Nuh-uh.

please, PLEASE,
don't make such snide remarks
about someone you don't actually know.
ok?
Good.
Now go dress up Barbie.
You girls arranged a date
between her and Ken, remember??
Run along now.

The end.
I had so much fun writing this.
Awesome!
And no, I'm really not affected
by what those girls said.
I'm proud to be me.
It just helped me write a nice blog entry.
I don't see the need to have
to defend myself.
tata!

Clara.

2006-11-07T13:33:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow is english,O levels.
The first two papers were fun!
E maths and SS.
I will dearly miss SS.
SEQS--Memorising some details
and explaining has become 2nd nature
to me thanks to the very fab
Ms Patsy Neo.
Goodness gracious, I daren't imagine
what my SS grades would be like
if she hadn't taught my class.
I'll always remember her.

So.
I always blog right before an english paper.
Its a habit.
It beats studying because once
I put pen to paper, or rather,
fingers to keyboard,
I feel an incredible surge of inspiration.

Today I shall blog about.
Myself.
MYSELF.
MYSELF.

No actually I'm just kidding.
I'm not that self-centred, REALLY.
I suh-wear.
I love Rainbow more than I love myself.
And that says a lot.

Actually, I want to ask you guys some
thought-provoking questions.
And of course, I'll naturally add in some
comments. ;)

Whenever I tell people about my
decision to go to a poly,
even though I'm eligible for JC
in my prelims,
I get two responses.
1) The kind, encouraging souls who tell me
that the poly is a great way to pursue
my interest.
2) The kfhevkegb types who sternly lecture
me.They feel that because I'm young,
I'm not taking my future into consideration.
And they feel that I MUST get into a university
and that going into a poly would hinder that.

HELLO??!!!
Is it my life or yours?
If my parents can accept it and are
in fact very supportive of my choices,
then why shouldn't you be?
I know, caring for my future, I will suffer,
YADDA YADDA.
Caring for a person is one thing,
but trying to take their life into
your own hands is another.
TOTALLY.DIFFERENT.THING.

( I know I sound angry.
I am, duh. )

Don't start calling me a selfish, ungrateful,
immature brat.
I'm refering to the forceful kind.
Not the kind, advicing kind.
That I can tolerate.

I think that this world is moulding us all into
very frightfully similar models.
And this world is twisting lives
into this warped, sad thing.
Many of my friends would know this.
I HATE stereotypicality.
Don't need to go to www.dictionary.com .
(which btw is one of my fav sites)
It means, well, the fixed, and seemingly
normal way.

Let me show you how the world is
psychoing people.
Question: Why do you want to go to a university?

19 out of 20 people would say
because they want to get that
degree and get a good job, and earn more.
Isn't it scary?
Wouldn't education be a torture,
not something fun anymore?
It is very rare to find someone who
wants to go to the university
because he truly wants to learn more.

So that's why I want to do what I'm interested
in, Mass Communications, at a poly.
Because unlike other people
who are able to endure 2 more years of
studying at a JC, I can't.
I just woke up one day and told myself
that I will not force myself anymore in life
to do what I do not want to do.
Because that's not being true
to your heart.
I'm not keen to go to a JC,
unless I have no choice,
so I'm going to a poly.
Likewise, people who want to go
to a JC should study hard and go to a JC,
not a poly.
If they truly want to learn, that is.

Don't do what you don't want to.

Now, I've covered the issue of education.
Lets move on to..lives.
Question: When you think of your future,
What do you see?

Again, a large percentage would say:
I'll be married, and have children,
and live happily ever after.

That's what some people want.
I understand.
But that's not what I want.
And many people are trying to
mould my live into that mundane
live mentioned above.
Now, that I don't understand.
WHY do some people (mostly adults) :
1) Think that everyone in this world has to get married?
2) Think that by getting married people will be happier?
( Which is sort of true, but think about this:
As marriage figures increase, so would divorce figures. )
3) Think that ALL women have to procreate?
4) Think that ALL couples should have children,
lest their life be "incomplete"?

WHYWHYWHY?

I'm telling you, it has something
to do with this world.
It is a scary world.
I'm very career-minded.
Some people are too.
I don't want anything to stand
in the way of my career.
And I think that having children
will affect my career.
My ideal career is different from
other people's.
Many people (esp. adults)
scorn the idea of my career.

I didn't want to say this,
but my ideal career is
lingering near the entertainment
industry ok?

Many people go:
Please lah girl, don't dream of such things.
You think very fun issit? No good one lah.

Ok, if it is true that careers
in the entertainment industry
are bad, then all entertainers should
just QUIT.
And we'll see who's laughing when
you switch on the TV and see nothing but static.

AHHHH!!
DON'T BE SO OLD-FASHIONED CAN?!

I want to be true to my heart.
And do what I want to do.
So, final question before I close:
Is your future what you REALLY want
or are you just conforming to society??

Clara.

2006-10-31T23:36:00.000+08:00

I just realised that I am allergic to
one part of my most favourite food
in one particular form.

I can't eat raw egg yolk.
I just did, and just like a few
days back, my ears are super
tingly, my chest hurts like
kwefhiwbhw
and my throat tightens,
making it hard for me to breathe.

Eggs are, no, were my fav food,
right next to mushrooms.

SIGH.

16 more days, we'll throw it all away.

Thanks michelle;
Pulchritudinous eh??
Not very in my opinion ;)

2006-10-30T18:01:00.000+08:00

Today was chinese.
Was it easy?

HAHAHAHAHA
HAHAHAHAHA
HAHAHAHAHA
HAHAHAHAHA
NO.

My mum and aunt went to taka
yesterday.And I went with them, my dad,
and met my sis after she was done
with her work shift.

My mum wanted to collect stuff
from Louis Vuitton, and my aunt
wanted to repair stuff.
So..I went in too.
They are so rich, they
employ men to stand at the glass doors
and greet you.

I can't buy anything from there
till I have some form of income because
1) No money.
2) Wouldn't squander my dad's $$ away like that.
Unspeakable!! tsktsk.

warning:very fake french 'accent'.
remembered it from harry potter.
Why? Because LV is paris.

Everything screams 'chic' and 'fashionista'.
Believe moi, buy zis and yoo shall be
asset reech.
(Few thousand each!!)

Zis is ze most beautifoo belt I have ever seeen.
The pink one on ze extreme right.
$680. Any takers??

And then I see de most gorgeous pair of schmoos
EVER. (I mean shoes. The one with the ribbons)

The prices are ridiculously extravagant.

My mum and aunt were done
after half an hour.

So I took one last glance at the impeccably
designed place, before walking away.
Without looking back.

Thank you for visiting my blog!!
Photolog cos I'm..heh rushing.
Study for Chem prac tmr!!
So...

Rainbow will escort you out!!
You might want to put on your gloves,
dahling.This one bites.

Out--
Clara.

2006-10-29T01:12:00.000+08:00

I am not perfect
BUT
I am perfect for you.

Por siempre
For always.

2006-10-26T22:07:00.000+08:00

Thank you God.
For the wonderous rain that washed away
the moronic haze.
My babies are out again.
After..3 weeks??
Yeah.
The stars, silly.

But if you look twice,
you'll see its all lies.

2006-10-17T15:45:00.000+08:00

The O's are looming just ahead.
I really have to kick into gear, yannoe?
So I'll be blogging very,very little.
Most likely not at all. =(
But don't wory, after the Os
I'll have all the time in the world to
flood you all with more entries.
So..
Tata!!

p/s: its kind of funny how people are planning
post-exam activities when its pre-exam now..

p/s 2:A common scenario.
Girl A and Girl B.
A:Look at that girl! She is so pretty!
B:Aiyah, put makeup one lah.
I don't put makeup you know!!

Sigh.

B is all like acting so holy
just because she is Au natural.
And B takes comfort in the fact
that she doesn't use makeup.
B uses that fact to console herself
whenever she sees a pretty, made-up
girl.
Why, may I ask?
Simple.
B feels that there is still room for
improvement for herself,
that maybe, an ugly duckling can become
a swan with make-up.
No, No, and NO.
Make-up enhances, not changes.
If make-up is that effective,
why was plastic surgery invented?
Fugly people would then
be able to look like http://dawnyang.com.
Haha.
Dream on.

p/s 3:
Just had to paint that scenario, sorry!
And bye!

Clara.

2006-10-08T16:25:00.000+08:00

You know,
only recently, this year,
have I really begun to appreciate
Asian beauty.
In the past, I used to think
that western actresses were
the prettiest.

But that has changed.
I still do think that western actresses
are drop-dead gorgeous,
but I have begun to
realise that Asian actresses,
especially Korean ones,
have their own beauty too.
And boy can they hold their own
again western actresses.

Here is my FAV korean actress.
No plastic surgery, mind you.
And that's very rare in the korean
entertainment industry.

Tada!
Kim Tae Hee.
Isn't she cute??

Her teeth are so white.
I bet she bleached them.

Korean actresses are so fair.
How do they do it??
I read in an article that whitening
products do not whiten your skin.
They only help to bring
out your natural skin colour.
Which is true.
So sorry if you are born dark!

The worst part is that not only
are they fair, they are also TRANSLUCENT!
Which is veryvery nice.
It gives such a nice radiant,
glowing quality to their skin.

So pretty....

Her brother Lee wan
is very handsome too.

When I went to H.K,
many pictures of her were everywhere.
She must be quite big there, considering
that she endorses LG.
Now you know why I bought my phone.
hehe.

Ok,
gotta go.
Total eye-candy post, huh?

2006-10-05T21:35:00.000+08:00

Good going, wind.
Thank you for blowing the dreaded
pollution from the hot spots over
to our little island.
Thank you.
For my sore throat and cold.

I jotted this down before assembly.
This silly yet common scenario...

*Pardon my sarcasm and singlish!
It..builds the..atmosphere?

***Three stars mean that I'm
about to do a plain ol' logic check.OW.

Scenario:
A guy ( A ) is helping his good friend ( B )
to ask out a girl. ( C )

Usually, when a guy expresses his 'love'
for someone and is feeling all (aww)
confused and whatnot,
he can always rely on his friends for HELP!
They will go:
Never mind lah. I will help you.
Sure can one.

And A would walk over, as cocky as
a rooster.
C refuses, and expresses her disinterest.

A starts to sweat. Suddenly this
task isn't as easy after all...
But still, he perserveres.
How can he let his good buddy down?

Out of desperation, A says:
Please leh.. B has been infatuated
with you since...._________.

***Puh-lease.
SO?!
WHY should C accept B ?
Its not like she asked him to fall
for her, right??
WHY must C pay for B's mistake??
B made a choice.
He must not make others
compromise to fit his choice.
Duh.
Its a C H O I C E.
Not F A T E.
Load of bull, I tell you.
When a guy falls for a girl.
The girl doesn't like him,
but he persists.
NO means NO ok?
You mean one day she will wake
up and say:
OH, I suddenly LOVE you!
That would only happen
if you struck the Big Sweep
Lottery the previous day.
Its even worse when the guy
tries to push away the fact
that he is stubborn
by blaming it on...
TADA! Uncontrollable circumstances.
"It must be heaven telling
me that our hearts are entwined."
HAHAHA.
Let me laugh in your face.
If you are a stubborn old mule,
then just admit it.
Love is a choice,
not something forced onto you,
or something that
"you cannot help."
Don't play the victim.
You'll just come off
as ANNOYING, STUBBORN,
and DESPERATE.
All of which are EXTREMELY
undesirable qualities for
any living creature.

Ok.
Back to the story.
A is fighting a losing battle.
( Trust me, when a girl says
she is not interested, she ISN'T. )
C is getting nervous now.
"Why so long ar?" he wonders.
A tries again.
He emphasises on B's
infatuation with C.

***Can you force love?
NO, my friend.
Forced love=Buying a foreign wife.
B should go shopping
in a third world nation.

C, of course...
says NO!!
Now, A walks back to B,
feeling incredibly like a failure.
But NO!
Didn't he boast about asking C out
to be an easy task?
He must not lose face.
So he tells B :
She needs more time lah.
Sure can one.No prob man!

Now, A is a smart person.
He befriends C.
Gets her number, msn, e-mail.
So he can send her those
"Someone is thinking of you , like, NOW!"
sorta e-mail.
And because girls are such
nice creatures,
even if we dislike a person,
we treat them like they
are our acquaintance.
Neutral.
And A tries to ask C again.

C refuses again.

***I absolutely cannot stand people
who befriend their crushes' friends/
relatives/family JUST to
snoop around, or to "build friendships."
Most of the time, though, its to
USE them as a messenger.
You know, to pass bo-liao messages.
"He asks you what time you'll
be on msn today"
I'm not assuming that all such
friendships are FAKE.
But the person set out
with the mindset to find a messenger.
If along the way, he likes his
messenger, then FINE.
They shall be friends!
(See, I'm not that mean.)
These people are
snivelling little weasels.

At the end of the day,
C still refuses.
WHAT did I tell you huh?
Love cannot be forced.

And if you are a guy,
and you happen to be using one
of the above moves,
DON'T THINK GIRLS
ARE BLIND OK?!
We see all this.
And we poke fun at you.
Why?
Because, in our eyes,
a guy has to know what is NO.
If you having been following
the Channel 8 9pm Lawyer series,
you should know it very well.
Persistence usually never pays
off in one-sided relationships.
And rejection usually occurs
when you're not of the other
person's calibre.
(You're not of acceptable standard, hello!)
I strongly suggest that you
should look for someone your
own standard.
To prevent any heartache.
(See, I'm not that cruel.)

Oks.
Time to study.
Think over what I say.
They are, trust me, words of wisdom.
Even if you court an uninterested
girl for 10 years, give her beautiful
flowers, etc.
Let me ask you:
Will she, on one fine day,
say this:
Thank you for buying me flowers
all these years!! Sorry for ignoring you
all these years!! I suddenly love you!!
lets marry!!!

Well, don't be deluded.
that's never gonna happen.

My handphone bill is running high,
I don't have free messages ( hear hear!)
So if you're gonna ask me non-urgent
stuff, tag.Thank you and have
a fantastic day ahead.Or night.Whatever.
(Best friends and church matters are exceptions)

Clara.

2006-10-04T17:10:00.000+08:00

I have a fever =(
37.7 and rising.
Why, you may ask.
Well,
my mum forgot to switch on the water heater.
i slept 4 hours the previous night.
and then...i woke up to a freezing shower.
=:::(

I bet army treatment isn't that bad mann...

I feel so cold in my bones,
but i'm perspiring like mad.
HMPH!

Sulkily yours,
Clara.

2006-10-02T17:59:00.000+08:00

I'm very lazy to blog.
And I should be studying.
(haha, don't laugh D!)

So, being the lazy person that I am,
I shall upload some nice photos
from my phone and leave my poor
readers to try and make sense of them .
muahaha!!

Ze study corner.

Very vampy shot!

Vertigo.

haha! bye!
expect a more meaningful post..soon ya?

sympathy.does not always pay off.

2006-09-30T22:15:00.000+08:00

Chee-kos/Tikopehs

It doesn't matter what they are called.
They are, you know,
those irritating men who like to gape and
stare and stare and STARE.
You can practically feel
their burning stares.
Maybe if they look long enough,
you'll even smell burning flesh.
Whose? You may ask.
Don't be so gong, yours lah!
Their ages range from young to old.
Gawd, I hate them.
Sorry, but I just can't love them.
In fact, I feel like digging out their eyes
and letting Daphne play softball with them
during PE.
(Hello Delvina!)

I've lost count of incidents
between me and this....species.
and TODAY again another incident
took place.
Ok, fine, I was wearing a skirt today.
But like, SO?!
Its not like those super short
ones which look like hotpants.
I was walking past the busstop
with my sis to look for my parents.
Then this old man,
who, judging from his appearance
and attitude (remember attitude
determines altitude!!)
is probably a good-for-nothing.
When I walked past he kept
wolf-whistling and making that
..sound..you know..
like..ok.
purse your lips together ,
press your front teeth to
your lower gum, and suck
in some air.Ya.
I use that sound to call Rainbow.haha.
Ok. Back to the subject.
He wouldn't stop.
We were supposed to wait at the edge
of the bus-stop but because of that
retard we had to go stand in some
shadowy corner of that area.
STUPID.
My blood vessels are going to explode.

I know guys like to observe girls.
Raging hormones.
I understand.
At least, for teenagers.
But, you, hello uncle,
raging hormones cannot be an excuse ok?
You're waaay past your prime.

Some guys use this excuse:
Girls are made to be admired.
And they expect us to be honoured
after hearing this sentence.
Please, don't sell us this cheap, sad
excuse to make up for your
lecherous-ness. ( if there's such a word. )
Cheeko just say cheeko lah!
What admire..
Admire your head!
We are flower vases issit?
Admire..
Admire.
Its such a weak excuse that its funny.
And whenever anyone uses
this excuse, I feel like smacking them
with my neighbour's socks.
And, mind you, my Blangadash neighbour's
socks are POWER.
The whole lobby area outside my house
smells like raw eggs and dogs
because of that pair of socks.

Ok.
Next subject.

Cab-Snatchers

Correct me if I'm wrong,
but this problem seems to
be more evident in our country.
Some loyal citizens may say:
Aiyah, because this is an URBAN city,
people always have to rush here
rush there lor...

Puh-lease.

That is yet another lame
excuse to cover up their
selfishness and inconsideration
for and towards others.

Today while my sis
and I were waiting for our parents,
we stood at the roadside.
Because of that cheeko, grrr.
Then this european guy and his chinese
friend approached us to ask
if we were waiting for a cab,
because they were waiting for a cab too.
We said no, thanks for asking.
The european guy put
on an all-knowing smile
and said that we were standing there
looking pretty.
When strangers talk to me,
my mind goes blank.
And all I can do is to produce
a single, tight-lipped smile.
But he was really cute, haha.
Whoops.Back to the subject.
Why can't our citizens
ask before plopping their
fat feet a few metres in front
of someone waiting for a cab?
Very hard to ask issit?
Or you just want to
act blur, and when you get
scolded, all you'll say is:
Er..sorry...never see.

Haha, like real lor.

Don't lieeee....

First impressions matter.
And I like to think of first
impressions as a painting.
A rude man would leave
this image of a brown
splotch on a clean white paper.
A good looking person
would leave a picture of
something nice.
A funny person would leave
a smiley face, painted in yellow,
on the paper.
Boring people would just be
a blank piece of paper.
And cab-snatchers would
be a shredded piece of red paper.
Why? You may ask.
Because I feel like ripping
them apart, thus the paper
is shredded and red, because..
to "see red" means to be angry.

Plus cabs are not easy to come by.

Are you one of the above?
You had better not be hor.
These two species..
hen(3) ling(4) ren(2) tao(3) yan(4).

Bye!
Clara.

2006-09-26T17:12:00.000+08:00

It came...and went...
and left such a great impact on...
my EYES!!
ahh noo....
I'm talking about the prelims.
and eyebags.

Lookie:

Looks like a teabag, lol.

And today,
I intended to:
Paint my toe nails black (undone),
go jogging ( i can't go without my mp3! my sister has it!! ),
sleep, (yeah. accidentally.)
and blog. ( As you can see, accomplished!! )

Oh, and I'm rather dumb.
Make that very.
I didn't know that to go to your
friendster home,
you have to click that annoying
(No, don't or Yes, display my last name)
button.
So NO WONDER I cannot view any friend requests
or testimonials.
I found many ancient things there. =x.
Anyway, why must they use the term
" Testimonial " ??
So formal sounding.
Like a life and death thing.
I hereby testify that:
Haha!! Yea! Miss you gal! We should
hang out soon man!!
er.

I'm trying to think of something intellectual
to blog about...but...
my mind is blissfully blank.
I'm only certain of one thing:
My A-maths is a goner!!!!
Blah.

think..think.
OH I GOT IT!!
I shall type out one of
my stories! ( That I promised
like 3 months ago or something )
A new old entry.haha.Lazy me!!
Not too many fanciful words;
short sentences.
Somehow, I wanted this story
to be plain, and simple yet
leaving a lasting impression.

Here goes:
(oh no its v. long!!)

Out of reach (On the other side)

She sat up groggily, taking in her surroundings. She was greeted by a white-washed wall. Where was she? She massaged her temples, feeling like she was experiencing a massive hangover. Shakily, she got to her feet. She found herself standing in a hospital corridor. To her left was a steel door with the word 'Mortuary" on it. What was she doing here?

Sudden rattling behind her made her spin around. Several nurses were pushing a stretcher. Whoever was on it was probably dead. A clean white sheet was delicately placed on that person. Behind the nurses trailed a despondent looking man in his mid-fourties. She could only barely make out his tear-stained eyes from behind his straggly hair. A mourner of the unfortunate victim.

"Excuse me..." She called out in a hoarse whisper. No one noticed. She sighed and made her way down the corridor. A left, a right, another right and she found herself in the waiting room. She quickened her pace, directing her gaze away from the saddening sight of mourning family members.

She crossed the room, practically jogging over to the lift. Reaching out, she pushed the lift button. Nothing happened. An old, wizened looking man pressed the button and it lit up. Her cheeks flushed a deep scarlet. She entered the lift. "Ground floor please," she said. He acted as though he did not hear her, but pressed the ground floor button anyway. After what seemed like eternity, the lift doors slid open. She took a tentative step out into the lobby.

Everywhere, nurses were bustling around, pushing carts loaded with food. Strangely, the sight of food made her nauseous. She reached up to brush away some stray fringe, and noticed a tag around her wrist. Could she have been admitted to the hospital? All of a sudden she just wanted to get home. She caught a glimpse of her reflection on the glass sliding doors. Apart from being a tad bit pale, there were no visible injuries on her flawless skin.

She stepped out of the hospital. Just before the doors slid shut, she caught a whiff of sanitizers. Glancing over her shoulder, she realised that none of the nurses had taken notice oh her disappearance. She took a deep breath, and fresh air filled her lungs. She knew this place. The street leading to her house. A thin smile broke out on her tired face. She was going home.

She wondered what time it was. Overhead, the stars twinkled tauntingly, wise beyond their years. Flickering street-lamps lit the way as she trudged down the street. As she neared her house, she was surprised to hear the wailing or sirens. In the distance, she caught sight of flashing lights. Immediately, she took bigger strides.

Straining her eyes, she saw police cars and an ambulance. A twisted heap of metal was surrounded by safety barriers. A huge crowd was gathered around the wreakage. She broke into a jog.

She recognised the wreakage to be a smashed car. Something wasn't right. A yellow car..then it struck her. That wasn't anybody's car. That was HER car! Who had been driving it? By now, she was running like the wind. She ignored her racing pulse and her ragged breathing. Her husband...her child!

Before she knew it, she was pushing her way through the crowd. " Let me through! Please! " she pleaded. No one noticed. No one cared. The blood rushing in her head made her feel sick. She began shoving people out of the way. Finally, she made it through.

When she caught sight of her husband and son, she nearly fainted from relief. Policemen were yelling at the crowd to keep back. She ducked under the safety barrier. No one noticed. She jogged towards her family. Something bad must have happened. Her heart broke when she saw her husband weeping silently. Steve didn't cry at his father's funeral, he didn't shed a tear at his best friend's funeral, so WHY was he crying now? A tear rolled down her cheek when she gazed at her son. A mirror image of his father, a perfect angel, Keith. His eyes were red and swollen from crying. As she ran, she wished that she could ruffle Keith's hair and tell him everything was alright.

Finally, she halted, breathless. " Steve, what's wrong? " She queried, her voice trembling. But her husband just stared ahead, overcome with grief. A burly policeman approached them. " What's wrong? " she cried out pleadingly. The policeman paused, then said ,"It was a hit and run...I don't know what that jerk was thinking..going sixty miles on a street. The doctors tried their best but..." his raspy voice trailed awkwardly.

"But?" She asked. " I'm sorry she didn't make it pal." With that, he turned and shuffled away, barking orders. Steve put an arm around Keith's shoulders. "Where's mummy?" Keith murmured.

" I'm right here honey! " She said desperately. Steve sighed and ruffled Keith's hair. "Mummy's gone...to someplace free of pain and sadness...Heaven." " Will she ever come back?" Keith asked. " No......" Steve replied.

She sank to the ground in despair, sobbing hysterically. The truth had hit her at an alarming velocity...she was DEAD.Keith began to cry. She wanted to reach out, to comfort Keith, to tell Steve that he would do a great job raising Keith...without her. But she knew that was much too late, for she was out of reach; she was on the other side.

End.

wah biang!!
my fingers hurt like...
What do you think?
I wrote it while waiting in line
for a medical check-up in school,
and on the bus home.

Why, you may ask, do I always write about death?
Hmm, well, because life is not always so golden.

you write beautiful stories about life,
but life is not always beautiful.

And why, you may wonder, do I use
such Western names?
Because..lets try this out.
Ah Kow put an arm around Xiao Ming's shoulders.
lol?
It almost makes the story comical.

yup...

I wanna end on an interesting note:
Received this email from several friends.
Its called...
THE PSYCHOPATH TEST.
*shudder. To think that some of you
guys might be bonkers.haha.

Read this question, come up with an answer
and then scroll down to the bottom for the result.

A woman, while at the funeral of her own mother,
met a guy whom she did>not know.
She thought this guy was amazing.
She believed him to be her dream guy so much,
that she fell in love with him right there,
but never asked for his number and could not find him.

A few days later she killed her sister.

Question: What is her motive for killing her sister?
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Answer:
She was hoping the guy would
appear at the funeral again.
If you answered this correctly,
you think like a psychopath.
This was a test by
a famous American Psychologist
used to test if one has the same
mentality as a killer.
Many arrested serial killers took
part in the test and answered the
question correctly.
If you didn't answer the
question correctly, good for you.
If you got the answer correct,
er...
dkeurty498tyh;oertg94. MERCY!!

TATA!!
Out, Clara.

suddenly i know i'm not sleeping..
hello..i'm still here, all thats left of yesterday..

2006-09-25T12:49:00.000+08:00

This is...the soundtrack of my life.
Puzzle over the profound lyrics...
Read between the lines...
Touch my innermost being.

Evanescence
Breathe no more

I've been looking in the mirror for so long.
That I've come to believe
my souls on the other side.
Oh the little pieces falling, shatter.
Shards of me,
Too sharp to put back together.
To small to matter,
But big enough to cut me into
so many little pieces.
If I try to touch her,
And I bleed,
I bleed,
And I breathe,
I breathe no more.

Take a breath and I try to
draw from my spirits well.
Yet again you refuse to drink
like a stubborn child.
Lie to me,
Convince me that Ive been sick forever.
And all of this,
Will make sense when I get better.
I know the difference,
Between myself and my reflection.
I just cant help but to wonder,
Which of us do you love.
So I bleed,
I bleed,
And I breathe,
I breathe now...
Bleed,
I bleed,
And I breathe,
I breathe,
I breathe-
I breathe no more.

Listen to it here:
http://www.amy-lee.de/german/musik.htm
Select the title yourself.
Breathe no more.
I think: She has the voice of an angel.
And you shouldn't listen to "Goodnight"
when you're all alone at night, lol.

I used to think that I was capable
or just throwing things over my
shoulders, and leaving them behind
but instead, I unknowingly
throw them to some corner of my heart.
And there they lie, forgotten,
seemingly harmless.
But they wait.
And one day, it might all surface.

Tomorrow is the last day of the prelims!!
I can't wait.
One last big fun outing--
then it'll be back to the books.

I don't understand,
and probably never will,
why you took joy in all my shortcomings,
and why you were so insanely
jealous. Jealousy can kill.
Shouldn't I be the one forgiving you
not the other way around?
But yes, I have forgiven, and moved on.
Why can't you do so too?
Could it be true that you
have a narrow heart??

Why.
Am I inclined towards the people
who are off limits??

leave your thoughts in the tagboard!
my handphone bill is on the rise =x.

2006-09-23T14:18:00.000+08:00

Early x'mas presents anyone??
kidding.
I know i just bought my
chocolate phone...
but i really want a guess watch!!
At first I wanted one like the pink one
above.But in black.
But now...look at their new range!!(Below)
I'll convince my parents.
They were willing to buy one
for me, but then I forgot.
Must remind them again,haha.

twisting people around my little finger..

2006-09-22T22:22:00.000+08:00

Please go read my poem!!
Previous post..
I worked hard!~!

Evidence::Getting down to work.

Hi guys....
I haven't been updating my life much
on this blog.
Here goes nothing!!
Photolog!!
And this time, it makes sense.lol.

Rainbow loves exploring.
And oh, look what she found!!

...........

Rainbow, meet God.

Ignorance.

Cell group today.
I cannot even begin to describe the
fun and laughter I shared with this huge,
happy family.
I'll always remember the plate
of fried chicken, a sure-fire way to meet God,
a one-way-no-return ticket on the
Heaven Express.
Salavation is hereeee!!!!!

I liked this random shot!

Today's Physics paper was a killer for me.
I studied till 3 am.
And I was really tired and couldn't
absorb anything more,
so I skipped three chapters..
somewhere at the very back
of the textbook.
And guess what???
They were a huge percentage
of the paper.
I'm so dumb!!
I should have known: End-year paper,
schools tend to focus more on
the later chapters because we would have
already been tested the front parts
in the mid-years.
Groan.

Something funny happened
yesterday. I was stoning,
staring into space, leaning on the school pillar.
Then this delivery guy came up
to me and told me that I looked
like a doll and that I should join Singapore Idol.
..
..

When strangers approach me,
my mind goes all blank.
So I just went :"Oh."

lol.

Dug around for the most doll-like
picture that I could find..tada!

Its been raining a lot!!
Uh-oh...

And it really pours....

I'm the kind of person who focuses
on the results rather than the process.
Because at the end of the day, what
people look at is the final product.
Plastic surgery? So what?
At the end, she is prettier than you.
And people focus on that fact more.
Studying till the wee hours??
If you get bad results, people
(e.g your parents) won't really bother
how much effort you've put in.
All they'll focus on is the results.
Today, the result is what really matters.
In the business world, it doesn't matter
what underhanded methods you use,
e.g pulling connections.
All that matters is that you get there.

Talking about studying,
sigh.It makes me feel so
hollow and surreal.
There must be more to life than studying right??
I believe in being intellectual,
not book-smart.
Most of the time, we don't really
apply our studies to our daily lives.
Unfair judgement!!

I'm so drained...
makes me feel...
like that.lol.

Dead....

Or alive??

Clara is dying from exhaustion.
Broken my record..
Shortest sleep.2 + hrs.

Long enough??
But before you leave,
I finally updated my previously
defunct Friendster.
After hearing what my cell group
leader said....haha.

So go!!!
And I updated my profile pic too!

Friendster:
http://www.friendster.com/5821803

Profile:
Click on the second yellow square,
then click on that whole portion,
its a link!

Tata,
Clara.

2006-09-19T15:43:00.000+08:00

ahhh..quickquick.blogger will
be down at 4...

so..i spent 1 hour,
2 10pm to 3 10pm writing this.
i've been thinking about it for a long time.
go read my previous post too
while you're here. i had a hell of a time
writing it.super fun!

Here goes nothing!!!

Maybe death isn't so bad after all

These hands are cold,
these feet are weak.
Though hope is lost,
but that faith you still keep.

My home was the hospital,
my friends were the walls.
My food were pills and needles,
but those didn't help at all.

Still it kept coming,
and it spread to my core.
Can you hear that mummy dearest?
Its death knocking on my door.

I wish I could grow old with you,
and be the son you always wanted me to be.
I'll buy you a beautiful mansion,
with a garden, right by the sea.

But I won't be able to repay you,
for all those endless nights you spent,
Telling me about my guardian angel;
but mummy, where has she went?

For my pulse is fading,
and my heart is gripped with fear.
Why isn't she easing the pain?
I think the end is near.

Maybe she'll fly me away from this place,
to somewhere far away.
Someplace high above the clouds,
I think its Heaven, I heard her say.

Where the streets are paved with gold,
and songbirds sing.
Where children can play all day,
and silver bells will ring.

And whenever you think of me,
just gaze up at the sky so blue.
I'll keep watch over you, mummy,
I'll be your angel too.

But now its time to leave this world,
I can't ignore the Soul Reaper's call.
But fret not mummy dearest,
maybe death isn't so bad after all...

what do you think??
tag.

bye,
clara.